the other day , i was in bed i was thinking to myself .
Am i crazy to feel like this or what .
I found answers , how stupid can i be .
What i been looking for is what we had 3 years ago .
and i dont think i can have it back , i thought i would feel the same when we text/on the phone/msn , like i would get butterfly in my stomach and wake up thinking of you first or some sort of epic feeling this time i did not feel anything . More normal , like i have/force to talk to you kind . True i would not want to be friends with you , but being friends with you will be weird , cos your not like most of my friends . Your nothing like that or someone that i would like call friend .
Yes i will be free 12 years later , but i guess i cant be that mean . But part of me tell me to forget about it cos you really have nothing to offer me . Excpet fights and me feeling sorry for myself .
Maybe i am writing this down without knowing that i am still not over you , but trust me now the feeling with you is much much more mutual , something which i never expected . But i guess it true , i got to get over my past . Not you not me and not us .I just need to stop holing on to my past .