/school is alright for me

2.4 run was aha awesome

but timing was bad but lucky it was our first try

but still i pass i am aiming for 15 min or lesser

a lot of stuff happened thought out the week

and i guess everything is taking a turn

i never realise this but i guess muckzxzx gang will be almost gone

god dammit it i hate the sudden of this.

i guess this dam thing is not going to work.

so in class another story

and i dun think it will be great to say this bullshit

so yest talk to Chloe on how much my intake of food is

i dint know i was such a consumer that i eat like a

and i dunno why i am doing this to myself

i feel good when i am with food

they are my best friend even when i am not hungry

♥ this is the retake of my life

okie mom told me main reason that my cough is not
getting better is that i still eat all my junks and drinking all this shti
hahah and my voice sound horrible lar .i cant even scream lar.
cos i just realise that in school also when playing around
kellise hit me den i scream no voice came out lar!
ppl ask me dont talk and teahers tell me that too lar :(
hahah den common test was lke shit cos i dint finished up my summary writing lar
i was in a rush i dunnoe why i dint have enough time ??
and baldive was lke "shut your bloody mouth"
HAHAHA scarry and funny lar
den after school head town with chloe
sleep at far east long john there.
i know wtf right? den went to read books den head home
i wan to finishe up my sorting of my papers :D
did i mention i didnt msg anyone for the past few days
i feel so lonely lar!my phone is lke useless lar

okie today not bad lar
school was not bad
some teachers scold us about not being serious and stuff
so after school went chloe place it was here mama birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY :D
MAY UR DREAM COME TURE
HAHAH I KNOW YOUR DREAMS AND WISHES!
i been to her place alot of time but i nvr once eat dinner theere
and today i came back very full with the cakes and the in between snacks!
hahah and i dunnoe how many glass of water i drank too
and chloe was big fun lar!
i miss her lar
and the oxygen thing is so fun! HAHH
den homeeee and talk to yasmin!
now i wan sleep later :))

school was ermms?
i dunnoee fun fun
okie start the day and it pouring lke shit only when i was reaching school
if i know i would go play in the rain.just now i just realise how caring Mr's leong is our vp
i think i lke her more then Marion tan :D
class class class den ms ng nvr come so free preiod so Monica wang took our bubble away and she think playing bubble is for a 3 years old kid lar!3253 her lar!
so after school dance okie i tell you this time i give up lar
the stupid arse is lke bloody crap okie i wan punch his face lar
i started out with energy den 15 min later all the way to 5.30 i was already dead lar!
and i cough lke siao the whole day in school!my throat hurt lke crazzyy
i think i am lovinngggggg playing the piano again :D

HILARY DUFF LYRICS

With Love
I don't mind you telling me
What's been on your mind lately
I don't mind you speaking up
I know sometimes I can be
All wrapped up and into me
I can be in such a rush
Just slow me down
Slow me down
Tell me tomorrow everything will be around
Just slow me down
Slow me down
You're the one that keeps me on the ground
Baby you can be toughSay enough is enough
You can even be blunt

Just do it with love love love love
Tell me I'm wrong
That I'm coming on way too strong
Don't think I'll be crushed
Just do it with love love love love
Just do it with love love love love
Just do it with love

I can take your honesty
All your words weigh heavily
Listening to you all the time
I want to be there for you
The way you've been there for me
Always help me walk the line
Just slow me down
Slow me down

I know you will always be around
Baby you can be tough
Say enough is enough
You can even be blunt
Just do it with love love love love
Tell me I'm wrong
That I'm coming on way too strong
Don't think I'll be crushed
Just do it with love love love love

All this time we thought we knew each other
Now that I am leaning on your shoulder
I can tell you baby that
You're right when you're right and
You're wrong when you're wrong and
I can be weak 'cause I know you are strong
Baby you can be toughSay enough is enough
You can even be blunt

Just do it with love love love love
Tell me I'm wrong
That I'm coming on way too strong
Don't think I'll be crushed

Just do it with love love love love [x2]
Just do it with love love love love
Just do it with love
Just do it with love love love love
Just do it with love

okie i am going bored at home
seriously i'm sian to the max
wahlao should have gone out to watch movie with halid just now
but mom still dont wan me go out lar cos i have a massive head pain just now
and i even cry lar now i know why ppl ask me not to get sick it feel horrible and you dont
feel lke a normal person.yeah you feel lke alien
hahahah but still i'm sick and been going around ppl friendster acc and blogs (:
but i still dont lke friendster cos there still gary testi which i yet approve all of them.
irritating bastard hehe jk lar. you still will die with me right :D
on the other note dear is out of hospital and she have lke 4 days of mc
must i say cool lar and i wan go land myself in hospital so that i can use hospital clothes and chloe would want my autograph and pic :D but i am just glad that she is out of there
hahah i sound dumb and this is my blog but did ayrton sim discover that dear was in hospital cos he read my previous post.hehe den i must say hahahhahah but means he still care about dear :D
hahaha i dunnoe wat the hell am i crapping now kk i must watch more movie frm youtube.

tag reply here

andy:hahaha den over my plaster i go draw another brows can?haia easier lar i go print A4size pic of myself before i did my brows den i stick it to my face?HAHAH can ?? ♥

bridget:wahh dint know you care about me,i still remember you finger in maths class!thanks ♥

chloe:DEAR haia you dint wear hospital clothes!get well soon okie mahera is getting better lar,i'm not stress anymore i wil visti you one of these day,take care okie ♥

shane:HAHAH we'll shall see.seriously dont you sleep?♥

tags reply here

chloe:dear you alright.i'm sorry that i dint visti you ): get well soon kk

i hope he burn in hell lar(:

andrea:i know my brows are funny!dont worry it will grow okie den i go make a nicer shape

if not i will go and paste plaster kk hahaha

yunhi:i'm alright lar!hahaha dont worry mahera will get well really soon!:D

shane:thats okie lar.dont need say sorry (: wad you mean it all just begin? i guess you sleep preety late cos you tag at 3am?go sleep early next time :D

at home

dint go school

miss out using bro formal shirt!

haia i am still having fever

it goes up and comes down and goes up and so on

should have pretand to be okie in the morning cos

mom dont allow me go hospital to visti dear cos i am not

fit enough to walk and move.

i feel so bad she was there when i was sick yest and now

she land up in hospital i am no where near that hospital

dear i'm sorrry ): get well soon kk

i hope ayrton sim is reading this

hais i am freaking hell sick
and after eating pandol my temp was lke for 38.5 and it went to 39.1 and the thermometer make a funny sound when it reach that high
freaking hell unlucky lar i got sick alot of time
blah i dont it! i like it one bit!
maybe i been to stress out lar
i wan go school tmr so i can wear my bro formal shirt ):
okie heads hurt till i get better

i will chose to be happy (:

i am having a little of time to update till my partner come online or
i will do it alone again.fcuk this few days i feel so stress yeah emotionally and physical
monday was big fun when school start but then i get to get tired really tired
since this term i make sure i finish my homework on deadline so i tend to sleep past my sleeping time!trust me this is a big challenge to me cos i am bothering on how i manage my time well.been going out far far for lunch.
yest Chloe did a thing which woke me up, reality struck
seriosuly i need to stop making myself happy and face the truth even when it hurt
but i dunnoe where in the hell i stand?
is like everything i know is all a mix feeling that he telling me
abhishek was right.
i dun know how to face this again cos.....once bitten twice shy
i mean now is like.....
should i move on?

i am drain out la

my nose is lke a water tap

now blood flow through my stupid ear

and the dance instructor is lke a fcuker lar

i wan die already

tags reply

chyna: nvm lar i saw you lke 2 days ago loves!haia i dont thinks guys read my blog so i dont mind saying i use pink bra:D

chloe:hahah i dunnoe wat to type hahaha

andy:guys dont go my blog,i hope so lar!who cares lar!hahaha i went for yunhi party and cheer up about your mom k :D

bridget:at least i know you cares when i die! hahah :D loves lar!i nvr go for the last syf!i dunnoe the new step!

edora:come online i send you all lar, hahah we meet somedays den i show you my brows which have two plaster on it hahaha

went to science center with yasmin,mateesha atiqah and nisa

actually meet up with diayana,nurul shaheada, cass.wong and nicole

went to celebrate nurul birthday and so on there

smear some cake on nurul face

she is so cute lar keep saying dunnoe wat

den we got spilt up due for some communication

den head our way in went to i space there

the place is freaking cool

i dont mind working or living there

should go to i space lar the place is lke errrmm!

so science space like!

went around touching everything we saw

i played some video game and hell is look so real

i could just die to own some of the things lar!

so did our report too.

now i know why my bag is freaking hell heavy

it contain my maths book lar!

den sit down at the floor just to type of the bloody thing

kids were watching lke they have nvr see a laptop before

some kids i saw were so hell cute

so went around that place and go round and round and round!

hahah science center is a good place for a good date!

i proudly to say scientist is a very cool person

den went eat at mac and chill at jurong lib there

they were checking some things in my laptop!

den head home in the bloody hell pack train lar!

been going home with pack train

science is so cool
to this

it went lke that

my unreal boss

i wan be a information security analyst where that thing do :D

my bunny nurse :) i see thewad lies ahead of me :D

fishesssss in the pond

robots need loves

whatever this thing does

science center

Looking back if

we had one more night to spend

I would steal every second

I would never let it end

maybe i wont blog anymore

we shall see i want to switch to something

which i can lock and let my friends see it only

i dont even know wat i want

cause i don't know where&how begin

went out around 2 went to meet my cous at
city hall there kind of late
den went to funnan there
i dun wan to say this but i think the place darn unfamaliar
yeah den went to get microsoft stuff
omg freaking god lar there this microsoft cd i dunnoe premium i think
it cost lke 1k for that god dam it so effing ex lar
but since it is premium it should be good
i want to upgrade to window vista the thing is urlta lord cool lar
i saw who everything works
den walk around there got the stuff yeah shopping for gadget can take forever
should have grab the latest photoshop when my cousin offer to buy for me
but i dint cos i feel so hhahaha so i dint
omg you know someone could spend up to 8k for the mircosoft thing
dumb founded so after that went to eat there
now i know guys lke to hang there since its a gamer world
saw alot of gamers hahah cool lar
den took bus to mefie condo for yunhi party
so took bus frm there
den i saw someone so ms yati
she loook so minah with her grp of friend


den head to mefie condo there
it nice lar even if was an old condo lar
took alot of pic there cam whore all the way
den after that went to town for a lill while den head home :D
cant say that it is her birthday now will post that on the day itself

pic not with me will post them when yasmin and yunhi send them to me
den i will post those on my phone too :D

have i ever tell you that jokim gomez clean up really good
and he look errm hot?HAHAHAH yeah
blah going down city hall later to meet my cousin to get stuff
den going to yunhi party :)

i wan my old brows lar
this look lke i dun have brows lar
nr mind lar i should go place plaster
and clami that i have pimple :D
HAHAHAHAA

the result okie half of it :D

the guy who did my brows and thier curls!i wan my brows to grow :(

ps ps ps he say i have nice features when he did my brows :D

he say now i look more girly

chloe say i look lke mats girlyfriend :(

my brows!i miss them lar!

camwhoring is fun after standing under the sun :D
with out her i cant wake up lar

my alram clock hgahah but i love you nehs!

blah darn day
edora woke me up den went meet her at boots and shoe there
went for netball at primary school there den
went to meet chloe at jurong ice skating there
went to jurong mrt station meet chyna head to bugis to buy stuff
went to do my brows while they did eyes lashes they guy was errm HAHHAAH but he say i have a nice face features :D
den cabed to meet dora at cine :D
went to hongkong cafe there milk tea is niceeee and around den fareast den home :D

picture will speak a million words
soon kinda of tired

i am bored lar
hhahah i should load long await pic lar
blahhh going to school later on at 1 :D so i have an hour to get ready
hahaha i shouldn't blog this maybe today i will wear a pink bra!HAHAHAHH
too much info lar :D
oh oh yest night was so funny lar talking to sahail
effing stupid lar bloody hell random lar
i know his dirty little secret!
my ear is still as deaf! anywaywzxz i wan to pooff to school!
meeting mr goh maybe he will talk crap with us and make funny comments! :D


2nd day of holiday
no homework done!

felt lke blogging :D
feel bloody hell weak lar i am sick and i feel so lethargic
and i dint do anything today lke literately i did nnthing
except going out to see the doctor which was only lke
fifteen minute and pick up my phone la and den i did nnthing blah.
hahah i jus found out alot ALOTTTTTTTTT of people was
finding for me. yeah alot of them call me when my hp wasnt with me :D
so touch lar hahaha

i am bored
i got an mc for today :)
but it is a holiday
blah dint go for maths class cos i went to the doctor
and i cant stand moving during syf with my ear on the other hand
a start to a new holiday and i have tons of holiday homework yet touch :)
piss of crap lar.blah i am bored some one entertainment me .
going to nokia shop to take my hp hahah at last that hp of mine :)

so much for a holiday
cos i dunnoe having a timetable for a holiday is no big fun i tell you
everything seem to be cramp up i dunno
e when i could just chill at town for a whole dae.it can happend if i want to do last min work :D which i dont intend to do.i pray that i wont do it so tmr i have to make a gold rush to pick my phone see the doctor and to school on time :D which will end at 5.30 blah .seriously my ear hurts lke shit. been drowing pandols for lke 3 days already cos the women i go to dont works on sat and sun.haia my blog is no fun with out pic lar
any way i will go online for an hours since i rarely go friendster already so i think it is enough for me :D hahahaa

i declare that i dont lke my form teacher
okie she call my dad i wanted to cry when he confronted me
oh shit lar crap dad talk to me about me failing duh!
and stuff about me in class :( boo hoo
but in another note, hell am i luck to be able to keep my laptop and handphone
my privileges that is but i rather limit my time in the com cos i dunnoe where to stop
he said that he will take them away during the mid term when i fail
which means i have to pass everything
but i feel that i am letting them down lar
it seem that i ask alot from them and return them lke nnthing
mahera need to buck up frm her studies
okie mean i have to complete assignment in time
and stricly no no last min studying and getting a just passing marks
i want to get everything top notch marks
and no more going back home late be back home by 7 on a school day
and study when i am at home cos i cant seem to do that when i am at home
that are the plans that i am trying to do someone wish me luck :D
and oh no my ear it is as pain as ever seriously i think i know who i want to be or at least get marry to a doctor! yeah my ear is pain lar i dunnoe i feel lke cutting it off so there will be no more pain!

school was high wen it started and when it end it was so dead
Assembly was making everyone tired and restless
so i fail quite a number of subject
can some on above 18 be my new guardian ?
my ear staring to hurt lke shit
really haia now it is my right it use to be my left!
pain lar lke crap it think it is cause i pierced lar
but it hurt inside lar
booo hooo
den went back home
i am not going to sleep in the bus anymore lar
you know wat happend i was sleeping in the bus all the way to the interchange
and when i woke up right no one was in the bus lar
den i check my phone 4 miss call and i couldent even hear ppl calling me
den went nokia shop get it done and stuff
blah i am so early todat
my ear still hurt lke shit
aint i a luck pig not to get my parents to the school ground today
:D
okie the one week holiday seem lke errrm hahahah one week of schooling except you can walk around

wed is the bomzxx!
omg i loveeee Wednesday if only Wednesday is every day
then it will be cool!
hahah cos i cry when ms yati told me the class alot of us fail more then 3 subject!
i cry lar i had no mood for my fave lesson maths!yeah i cry i thought i will die lar lke no tmr
den i felt better
so after school went to serene there with yasmin atiqah and amalina saw maid jasmin and the gang there .bought ice cream island cremary ! den head back to school
omg i feel so funny with jasmin they all lar.
it was all drama and more drama look lke a tv show which is so sureal.
hahah but it was sure fun den slack at canteen for a while.
ahahha guess who i see MS YATI FIANCEE omg okie
i know she told me about her having one and some of them tell me about how she look lke lar
but but but i dint except it to be lke..... i am not being mean but ms yati is hip and pretty and nice to so i think she deserve better.i mean seriously.maybe this is love all abbout.hahahha
den we saw them walking together!HAHAHAH ms yati ms yati.i call this true love.so head home blah
thursday
went to town skip sports day cos my left ear gave me problem
eat the some pill got better but still pain
meet chloe went city hall find her
blah so went around town there
so around eight plus went back home should have stay longer
cos when i was in train some old freak and his co was looking at me
and not long some old freak tell me his friend was intrested in me
i was lke going wth i am onli 15 lar and you are lke i dunno around your 30
i was so mad cos i understand some one my age there but for an old adult!
stupid pervert lar!
speaking of them another shit happend some guy who is in the air force he is in unifrom
was staring at me i thought all i could do is give him a smile den he will look away den he was lke giving me a wadever face he board the same bus as me he keep on looking even when i look at him he still was looking at me .and he even stop at the same bus stop as me and he even wait till i cross the road .i wanted to cry cos it was scarry and it was around 9 already lar
cos i thought he wanted to follow me back home
haia stupid sia!make me freak out lar!shit
anyway i need to go sleep if not i cant wake up tmr morning
and TMR IS FRIDAY LAST DAY
AND MY DEAD DAY! haia!shit someone kill me pls

going to make a long long post today :)
i dunnoe wat wrong with me lar
i am just scared that the earth will just go errm boom
i dunnoe and i think i yet wrote lke this before
so here goes

to my mumny and dad
i love both of you no matter wat i say to you
i mean really really love both of you
i know i dont say it but i dont know if i show you
mummy i love you so much i know i am the worst daughter
dad i love you too i know i ask too much.

to the person i love most i dunnoe why even when you piss the hell out of me i still love you
chloe chan!
dear thanks for those time i had with you.we went thought thin and thick with you.when all i did is just to complain and complain.thanks for being my friend.forever love

yasmin
having fun in class and just crapping around anywhere and speaking nnthing in our covo!and all the hot gossip we been talking around :D and the encouragement and last minute studying.i love love you

diyana
partner i dunnoe how will i ever concreted with out you lar making and exceptional for monday due to homeecon.hahah thankss :D wouldn't be happier siting beside you.and talking sometimes rubbish wit you and thanks for accepting my going stress in class especially on monday :D and dancing jive :D hahah i'm the men :) thank diyana i love love you

yunhi
too much crapenness lar with you.your pe shirt i give to you tmr kk.dont worry i dont really know malay so i am with you when yasmin they all start singing malay songs :) hahah i love love yunhi

atiqah
going out with you is fun cos you know a lot of palce which have nice food.thanks atiqah for everything i love love you

nadirah
:D mei! be greatful your the only one i call mei lar.i dunnoe wat to say.but thanks for those time i had in the past.cos as you know we been drifting lke really much but i miss you so much :( but i will love you lke always call me when you need me alright

amalina
going home with you is fun.lookin at people and seeing a guy who look lke__.aahahah thanks for the time when i complain to you.i know i complain a lot and thanks for bearing to see some keep moving at parade ground :D

andrea
my most royal tagger!hahaha syf with you is fun!hahaha andrea i love you!thanks for all the crazy moment

nisa
thanks for being so patient for teaching me slowly the mly dance steps for oldies :D
and those time for teaching me maths when i don't really understand some of the sums

matesha
going out with you is fun lar!and so is going back frm all the about ___! and laughing out ass out when she walk pass!hahaha love loveee:D hope your ear get better.

muckzxzx gang
to tell you the truth i hate where we are now.seriosuly i dont feel a love of this clique of friends which i thought i will forever love.but i guess it seem no one cares that why i dont feel any more so why do we call that for?i dunnoe lar
thanks for all the old times that i had with you guys.its memories that i only had with you cos right now muckzxz gang mean nnthing to me.so i hope all of you take care loves

meife!
who ask you go far far away class frm me.i miss the noisy frm you and the complain on which teacher you dont lke.i feel that i left you behind when i read your letter.mefie sorry but i still love you :D

NICOLE!
i dont want to kiss you neh!you are on fun person lar!haha go dance with me!oh mak aku jet toe!hahaha cute lar you!i love nic . go left go left right!hahahah scream okie!love love


chyna tan
thanks for the encouragement that i have frm you i miss you neh but you always not free so i have to live with it.

alyssa!
i know i dont smile at you when i see you but i think it is for the better!HAHAAH i dunnoe lar.but you know i love you righhtttttttt!

bridget
i saw you dance!hahaha so urtla lame lar.come for dance oftten it wont be much joy without you if not i will respon alone.i lke to see ppl covering thier ears when the musci blast off!

laily
my youngest aunty! even though i spoke to you in real life lke twice.i am looking forward to many many many seeing you.at last i can speak to someone about my life and about family with she understanding it :D
you're the only aunty i blog about cos you read my blog :D

Baby
thanks for all the encouragement the memoirs that i once share with you.but what can i do when you dont even care.to be the only one i pray :D thanks for the corncern.
baby i love you.

to other ppl that i left out!hahaha i love all of you neh there is still alot of you but my hand is sore alread!i love love you ppl lke really much i wont forget you guys.

friday

learning journy
so much fun running around chenna town there
and singapore river.run lke mad hahaha we are running lke mad
i love love love my group wonder people (:

sat
went out to play ball.den went to aunt house
play with nephew he look so diff lar he cant was so tiny when i last meet him den he was lke so hahaha big but cute lar! and he call everyone papa including an old Indian guy
which was cute.i taught his to say a few words!:D
i am the best lar.i'm child miracle they stick to me lke super glue (:

sunday
went i dunnoe where.ohhh went to buy stuff for monday
blah did nnthing but watch the champion all over again
now i know why guy with 6 packs are hot :D

monday
was all over the school today
i was so worry for ms ramalah lesson
but i manange to pay attention during maths!
going around school running here and there
and i think wat i cook look so horrid
that explain why i wan to get marry with a very rich guy
so we can afforded maids lar
i can have alot of great idea but i know i can nvr make it come true
had dance after school!i could die lar
so effing trying i had no more strength to do some of them
den i went holland to meet atiqah yasmin yunhi there and went to action city!
bought CANDY'S! hahah den walk around Holland and went to the pet shops! omg so cute lar i wan lar.den had home with atiqah took a pic of two crazy person on the over head bridged there HAHAH post when i have time :D blah den here i am.i desperately need to do my homework

another day
lookinf forward to tmr
learning jounrny it will be cool if i dint go
and i would stay in school
that means i wil be alone
all by myself
hahaha
and sat and sun!
i am gong to die in this rate
cos i dunnoe i was so unhappy that i jus pass my maths
i mean argh i dunnoe lar i know how to do all of the sums
but i am too stress to remember anything :(
BLAH den i dunnoe lar
had dots chnage eveything.argh so darn diffuclt lar blah
den krist kwol came class and scold cos of hair (:
hhahaha so piss of shit lar
i dun wan to become the one in charge la i was going to die already
anyway we going to have a dance items and
yasmin atiqah diayna nisa taught me and shaheda how to dance
all all the way to mr sami time CT too.mr sami was dancing lar
it was so funny and he even fake us by calling krist kwok when the class was so noisy
he was lke treating us lke 5 years old stupid toddlers
hahah we aint dumb lar
hahah but he is funny
den school eat struddle near school there it was nice(:
blah blah
bus ride home was lke crap i sleep and almost fall out frm the chari
anyway the door is knock bro friend lar
so god darn irrit!