okie
lets do all the relink
i will sure miss this blog
but i am ready for a change
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okie havent been update
going to change my blog to livejournal
but i am so lazy to do it lar
so been alright with exams and stuff
but everything is over already and after last paper went to kl with unlces and anuty
and stuff so blah blah shop shop shop cos i had lke people asking me take whatever i want in shops lar so i got a nike shirt and some other adidas stuff too.hahah i love shopping till i drop okie i dont want to say anymore la lazy
so today there is camp and hell i was bored :D


i guess today i realise how much i dont miss you lke
i mean the feeling is gone already
after so much shit that i went throught by myself
you were never even once with me
dont you dare have the cheek to say that you went throught alot with me
i was always there for you i this clear to you that i will always be here for you
and i would be your ears
but when i felt that the feeling is mutual already is lke you came back into my life
telling me that i dont want you anymore which is so not true
you were in your own world and there i am still hoping that you will at least say somthing
den when i leave frm the world which is waiting for you came back.
i guess i was nvr open for someone
i think i yet know the meaning of being serious yet alone love
i guess now wat i really one is to be myself and just happy with my greatest friend surrounding around me.
this is lke a really goodbye note to you but in a way that i am really having zero feeling for anything cos it just dont feel right

today was a bad start i felt so cold when i reach school
den in class gastric attacted the weird thing is that it went off and on
and it hurt so much this time
okie my fault that this happend
i yet have a proper meal for a few days already
so it hurt den i dont know mrs koh was nice to me :/
den vomited out my stomach acid
slowely got better and mrs khoo had to bring the bio thing a stomach for maths class
wth she made me look at it hahha
den class did nnthing at all hahhaa

i dunnoe wat's the problem with me
i just feel so crazy stupid retarded and numb
it's like everything for me gone haywire
it took a new turn
i am in a state that i dont even know wat is the hell am i doing
i just lost everthing that i studied and there is like a blank in my brain
it just went off i dont know

i dont know wat the hell i am doing right now

i cant even think lar

i mean everthing is lke moving too fast

and i dont have time to recap it and make it move slow

it happend in a blink and i hope wat i am doing is right

i mean i dont know if the feeling is still there

it made me realise somthing i dunnoe

i am lke going crazy to know wat i want to know wat i just wont get it

i dunnoe i cant even do maths question in my brain!

somtime i wish i can just drown this thing and live happily ever after

i guess i want to sleep darn it is making me drain out lar

its lke u see this is not like i dont love you is lke you dont even care.

i dunnoe this ruin everthing .

i feel all cold inside

i feel so numb

i just want to tear

okie i guess working is just not for me

i mean i wont do it till i am really ready and i need the cash

hahaha but i doubt i will have to do it lar

so the last day of work was alright :D

hehes i think i place all the blame to me cos i was lofting aroung den working

i alwalys walk to the last the last hall and den walk back again and i would just hang at the new place upstairts :D which is cool cos i saw like a whloe building of things lar!

i like it :D the whloe views and stuff den end of the day my fifty buck gone missing.

i felt nnthing

so school was alright

i dint even study anything in my brain lar i mean everthing was just blank i dun know why lar

i was singing and singing mad songs in my brain

den i left to meet sahail hahaha

sahail=bitch number 2 :D

hahaha saw a couple of people and i was shock to hear somthing

it was fun but it wasent cos i had an empty brain