DONT FEEL LKE PUTTING UP MORE PIC LAR CHLOE STOP MAKING ME JEALOUS BITCH LAR!!HAHAHA FIRST FIRST FIRST LAST LAR!
___&chalet the 364 roses we promise each other the crazy thing i do HHHAHAHAHA
the story which make ppl go gagaga

high class me=high class ah beng!
two very crazy girl!aqhahaha drunken party :DD
drunken party!haahaha MY last doing that lar!!
chloe and dora!lets go out after school :DD

new year?it dint out bad as i thought it be.yeah my 1 years old nephew taught me how to read!and i did not undesrtsand any of my homework yeah it.yeah i cry for no reason before 12 but it is a new year.i swear nxt year i wont be at lonely anymore i will be lke chloe!ahaha lalala not fair can!

yest i dream that i went china with andrea,yasmin,yunhi,bridget and diana.hahah it was so darn funny when i woke up i laugh.we went to eat at this place for the whloe week we sepnd there and the funny part is that the have this thing where you eat this food you might win it and stuff.eveyone won before excpet for me.hahah.yeah i was so darn mad lar.i even dream i eat pens!how dump can tat be lar!hhaha nvr den on the last day we wanted to go home and we saw alot of men at the airport and they have this thing where cool air will come out and and eveyone start running and there were lke a lot of staircases everone jus ran lke mad!oh i even thought i lose my phone lar!i dint knew if if i put inside my bag!den i found my phone at home!ahahaha den when we were suppose to go collect our bags all of us meet up and went to the airport and then chloe woke me up with her phone call!ahahaha it was funny lar ehh maybe barn yard will go china together?ahaa

a lonenly new year
jus me and my homework

i am so lazy to blog!will post pic of caleb really soon when i am free to upload them!ahaha i meet him the only guy who can make me smile no matter wat he do!hahaha he is going to make a very good boyfriend with high taste manzx!too bad he is only 4!cute lar he make my day okie half of the day cos the later half he was having mood swing!

school is starting woots!cant wait but i havent finished doing my hw lar!hahaha and 2 more days to school start!i guess i will be stuck at home cos i need use that thing to go do my homework!why cant my school use pen and paper! i havent even watch that thing i am suppose to go watch and i need to read a book!ahahaha omg 48 more hours lar ! can somebody help me do?

vodka+red bull+pandol=mahera fav past time?hahaaha havent sleep since yest!cant sleep cos i feel so fcuk up lar!i guess everything will be okie i will be happy go me agian!ahaha chloe you better dont sleep when i reach!manzxz!hahaha ANDY WILL FALL INTO THE POOL!I WAN MY REVANGE!gawd why is evything so blur?hahaha

i need to lay on the bed and the i will go bath around 6.30 i am going school aahahah!yeah first day of school okie chloe we will be eating mac at 5 in the morning or we will go to s omewhere!hahaha omg mom is nagging saying i havent sleep ahahha and she jus woke up!
haahahaahha i need to go lala land!hahaha but i am on cloud 15!can someone go cloud 89?ahahaa i love you worzxzxz no no i lurbexzx eu worzxzx!hahahahaa
is this colourful or does it hurt your eyes?

___&the 365 rose we promise each other!
__& i jump, you jump
___& you jump and dint die, you lay on the grass lar
___^^ tounge piercing on my birthday!


going to do hw later on with chloe and andy? i think ahahaah yeah the guy with super powerful england I WAS BORN OUT!HAHAHA!ahahaha maybe i am going meet calbe!going to get high with him lar!he cant spoil my mood luh!cuteness!ahaha i feel so ahahaha i wan get drunk anyone can buy for me vodka?not the 5 % one i wan a pure one okie!ahaha i want to get my tounge piercing on my birthday!ahaha omg i cant wait!i wan be high i wan go nuts again!i feel lke drinking i feel lke piercing!i feel lke screaming out to someone!i wan to go LALALALAL!

^___in leap of faith

i took a very big risk yesterday
i thought of giving up and just keep quite
but i need to get it off it is very pain full for me to keep it
was it a big mistake?
i knew was in store for me when i told you all that yesterday
i knew that i could lose you and our friendship and eveything we had will be gone
i am not saying that i dont mind losing you and our friendship
but....you got to understand this i been a feeling this way for more then weeks
i been feeling very sore and emo
i really thought that i could forget all about this feeling
i tried by avoiding and try to run away frm you but i dint have the heart to do that
i dint mean to make everything so messy
but dont you think since i been having feeling for your that means our friendship is not platonic anymore?
i am not asking you to go into a relationship
i really havent thought that far
i was kind of hurt with all the msg you told me yest
i cant blame you cos eveything was too sudden
i'm sorry if i really broke ur heart that time
you got to understand me
i did that cos i was in self deny
the truth was i felt that same way too
if i knew how you felt that time dont you think....

but right now at least i knew that i was brave enough to tell you how i feel.

is everything going to fade #33 74469458

just got back home the internet dint work in the morning luh cos of earthquake hais
ahaha my stomach is darn full manzxxz
i will not eat for 10 days since i eat till i wan puke
ahahha
okie so went meet dear we were suppose to meet at 7 am
our plan to meet ealry in the morning nvr work before as long as i could remember
hahaha she woke me up at 1 to ask me go bath but i left my huse around 3?hahah she went get hair cut.so frm bukit batok walk go jurong we walk at the high way $%)*?^ yeah the road was so darn nice.i wan taking wedding pic at the high way luh!den went meet her dad ahaha omg darn funny luh thier convo!but it make sence this month i really ask my mom really alot of money lar!darn alot.felt kind of bad of over spending this month lar.but hahaha holiday wat!hahah.den we go print pic.yeah darn fun lar i have a pic album on my pouch hahaha nice manzxzx.so we got a lot of nice pic yeah!.yeah.so went eat omg it was my first time eating at mac till we cannot eat yeah really cannot eat!darn full.den we watch movie ahaha omg it was so boring that i sleep i left half way my dad wanted meet me lar!wth wth he go out with me last week this week also wan go out with me .sorry dear i feel really bad so he pick me up den we go giant.yeah i grab everything i want i bought loads of food lar.for the week before school start.i push the trolly in the middle of the night and it was raining ahaha darn fun.this is the first time i go out with i had fun!ahahah oh yeah i eat again. till darn full lar!i will not eat for 12 day cos i think i consume food for 12 days already lar.haha it is not lar i eat my 3 meals today that why i feel lke i eat for 12 days i nvr eat 3 meals a day before hahha and this is how i feel lar.how do ppl stomach all the food and how can they eat that much.
dad wan me to slp before 12 luh today and now it is 12.10 hahahaa yeah i need to poof to bed!hais!he wan me to wake up early again!
if only i took my olevel this year then i will go school 3 months later unless i go jc lar!i wan tat luh!


omg another tsunami going to happend http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/asiapcf/12/24/indonesia.tsunami.ap/ .
i feel so sad and scared.realli i dunnoe why i imagine for the worst luh.it really kill me to see children dying and ppl house get wash away.but if i am fated to die in the tsunami wat can i do right? but i dun wan to die with regret.lke i dun wan to die with out tell you how i feel.i do love you i really do.if only you knew

i cant hold on to this feeling anymore
for once in a life time i felt i was a real person
it push me back when i see you in this state
i want to be there for you but
i guess you are not willing to open up yourself
i started bottling up my feeling for you
somehow i thought i could throw it away
far far away..
but i cant cos it will come back to me
no matter how far i threw it
i crave your name in my heart
i sometime wonder what am i to you?
where do i stand?

;baby i love i really do

what`s in my heart
the only one in my heart
love of my life '
shane

____^ love me will you?

____&heavily broken and i dont know wat to do

not feeling to blog.i feel so darn fcuk up.i am so tired of everything.i am looking foward to school.but i am not looking foward to 2007 eveything now is in a mess.i love you

oh i cut my hair!looks kind of sucky!hais countdown maybe i willl go and join my bro.maybe with dear but she will her bf.dont wan be lamppost!

kind of feeling dwn it is raining in the morning!wth wth the rain cannot wait till tmr.i love chloe.today is the day which i some how fear.the day where i was greatful wat i have here.i hope and pray that eveything will be alright.
was feeling kind of emo.i dunnoe why.i evey wash my eyes for a long time.



went check friendster.i wont reply testi i am lazy bleah. went across who view me dont really care which fucking mat view me den i saw raymond!the guy i saw at a party and i nvr spoken to him!hahaha okie so i view back his profile i wan see his pic.he is caroline bf?i dunnoe luh.den went his pic!hahaha omg omg i saw clarence pic too with him.they are besttie!hahaha okie wat make me laugh was that i cannot believe that i use to like only LKE this guy.it was jus crushing!okie some of you knew wat happend!it was totally dump.i am a slut!say that in my face bitch!so after tat i went on to think wat make me got a crush on him.
he is not high class ah beng.
it wasent love
it wasent his face
he is a basterted(heard tat he have a 2 gf)
he have nnthing in common with me
you cant talk to him unless you go to rgss(he only talk about studies lar!)OR
you love to bowl!
he bore you to death
he is not a rugger
i dont think he have packs!
he have nnting that i can lke about him
so wat was it that i lke about him?
HIS SCHOOL!
hahaha yeah i was so dumd when i think about it!it was really dump i tell you lar!his school!hahah jus cos he came frm asci yeah!but it guess now i am laughing on how i use to get high over him.den i should go love the school then.haha but i am greatful that i use to lke him!maybe only i know why :)
ps ps ps if you lke clarence this wat i base on wat i fee;(somehow i guess he do have loads of admire).i mean this is jus bad point about him
but he do have a good point!ask me i will tell you wat are his good points hahaha.
and i dont think clarence will read my blog!btw there are million of clarence!hahaha happy rotting with you new found love manzxxzx!


hahahaha here is for alyssa my ex!


i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!
i love my ex!

blah mom have not been happy cos i been waking up around afternoon cos school going to start all.blah.dont think i am going out tdy cos i am moodless.blah dear i dunnoe if i wan go cheryl party cos it is at pasris!i will tell you why
oh merry christmas to eveyone i will love everyone!hahahahahaahhahaha

i am so lazy to post!
a lot of ppl have been going to the zoo
i wan go zoo too or jurong bird park!
dont care someone bring me there
and my going to be husband better bring me to africa for our honeymoon
and before we get marry he must at least send me roses at least for a year!
i am so stupid
i want to bang wall and die!
cos someone let me be his wife
but i keep giving him the wrong message that i dont want to!
fucking hell i want to be someone important to him!
just hope that someone is willing to confess his feeling to me on christmas
i pray, i pray!
and really mean it when that person say he loves me

tags reply here okie

chloe:dear!i was high when i saw you okie not jus cos i saw him.hahaha but i saw him for less then 5 sec lar!wth wth but i am happy enough that i saw him lolls! .maybe cos i was feeling windy hahaha!maybe that why we were high.dear i went your blog and i saw your post.wth wth wth.he is nt my lover lar!lover is such a big word lar.hahha and i lke that pic part darn funny lar!gilson dont read my blog hahah jus say luh you miss gilson or my ex kor?maybe both hurs ?hahahhaa yeah sure i might come find you within 48 hrs!i am not high anymore!i wan get drunk =x hgahaha den call me when you are sober okie hhahaa

andy:i am not dating him lar!we are jus friend only lar!hahaha who told you i was going out with him!hahahs merry chirstmaxzxxz!hahahha


dora:hahaha yeah i know i cannot see another girl suffer in his bloody hand!i mean he is a great lover but he is also a heartbreaker!he is a players!hahaha his england will nvr change hahaha!i love dora!

yunhi:the green wall is at taka there.wth wth we are jus friends yeah andy is mean but i wan make it clear that we are jus friends luh.i am in love with mr ang!or mr low haio both of them lar!i love them to the max!

aly:i mean planing an outhing but nat is out of town and you will be out of town soon right?i sort of wan school too lar!that mean i have to chnage my wake up time.i am use to wake up around 3 pm when school is over lar!cannot do for you since you are my ex cos i am suppose to forget about my ex manzxxz!hahaha wth wth i dont have a weird laughter lar!hahaha i miss you lke fuck lar!

tags reply here

ainul:4 more days to wat?hahhaa

chloe:dear i jus saw you jus now!hahha it was fun we went high i love you so darn much!hahahah a yeah wat a day :) i love you. i miss caleb i wan meet him really soon before he leave again.i miss someone?lolls.shhhhhsssss my secret with you!hahahaha

nic:we left it in the room.sry but we took a pic of it.hahha how come you wan the bottle arhs?hhahaha.

aly:dont mia lar we going.school is starting soon already hahha.school starting soon.hahaha i dunnoe we all playing outing before school start.hahahah imu too lar.

yunhi:hahahhahaa

bridget: =D


this is for nad soory lar i blog for you okie this is more then chloe one

i miss nadirah i wan meet her up really soon i miss her truckloads.i cannot wait to meet her again!i love her too

i miss naidrah truckloads
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hahaha meii i miss you where you i wan meet you
i miss you lke fcuk!come out and meet me manxzxzx

__* i love you hahaha

jus got back home :) hahahahah today was high lar!i was going crazy with dear yeah i jus realise i dint get moody at all.hahhahaa we were HIGHHHHHHHHH

went meet my bestie in the morning or in thr afternoon i was late soory edora.i jus woke up lar.hahaha den we went slack hahaha omg the story i heard frm her is so darn funny lar.it was kinda of dumd lar of them.hahaha okie slack drank milk shake frm mac my first time hahah it was nice it taste lke startbuck mocha.hahah okie i thought i was going to slack at woodland only den my dear call me ask me find her at town hahah i was with my short and school shirt lar very slack.hahah den meet her and her mom at far east blah.den we start going high lke mad den see christmas gift wat we wan to get for ppl.this year we are really going broke.going to get boxer for dear hahah she going get it for me too den we going to wear it to school inside out!hahaha.den we went cine hahah wanted to find shane hahaha.nearly miss him yeah i was at the 5th level when he sae he leaving.hhahaa den meet him after he call me.i was hoping that fate will let us meet but there is no fate i guess my hp will do lar.hahaha he sae he going watch musical hahaha.dint know he will watch musical.den dear and me went hmv hahaha went to nem wanted to find that gay guy but he is not there.dear got her school bag already hahaha and she is happy about it.ahaha she finally got the bag she wanted.hahaha den went buy candy cane.hahha dear buy 7 and i buy 5 lolls.den blahblahblahblah lazy blog already lar.

dear thank you for today!it been a while since i feel lke this.it been a while since i knew wat the word happy is. thank you manzxxzxxx!i love you and you too!

got wokenn up at 6++ by someone msg.argh dont want to talk about that.i dont know why it seem that we are drifting i use not not mind when he dont talk to me for days but now a day seem lke 24 days. but now when we talk it seem very crappy i dont understand wat is happening. maybe wat we use to have is gone?i really thought you left me , it happend to me before and i am not suprise if it happend again.i dont understand why am i feeling lke this.i rarely feel lke this.argh this is so darn fcuk up~

it seem tat i'm alone in this world no one care
i been feeling very emo for the past days lately
i drown in my own tears


i miss our old time.
i miss you.

;___ an empty road# i miss you




I MISS CHLOE
I MISS CHLOE
I MISS CHLOE
I MISS CHLOE
I MISS CHLOE
I MISS CHLOE
I MISS CHLOE
i wan meet caleb!hahah i wan meet him tmr!hahahah

going to meet chloe later for breakfast and maybe playing in the rain? lets hope it rain. my head still hurt.i threw away my pill blah.sorry mummy.blah she dint let me out tdy.she thought i will play in the again.lets hope i get better later.i wan meet dear and maybe i will get to see ayrton.i dont care luh.so it is still pouring lke mad and i am feel lke i am in antartica.now i am going to full blast the air corn even thought i feel lke i am in antartica.dear see you later i know you will read this.thank you for caring. i love you manzxzxzx!


wad up with me getting myself sick?
tearing for no reason?
i am lke a girl falling frm the 20th level
i am on the verge of dying
i dont know why
maybe i am jus thinking too much



i miss you a whloe lot

tags reply here:

shane:its alright i understand (: no need say sorry

chyna:i feel so darn bad.ahaha vcd?.sure sure let call chloe they all and watch it together kkiexz?yeah my fever jus came back yest night.

nad:dont cry okie?cheer up eveything will be alright.

yunhi:wth you wan me blog jus to see alot of words huh?hahaha okie okie i will blogg lodas of stuff ahaha but you have to read this post to see ur reply so you are reading my post ahahah.ahaha i dont wan to remvoe the pic.nice wat!hahhaha

ainul:ahaha yeah a while lappy.hahha if only dreams really come true.den i will be the most happiesst girl ahaha

andy:yeah she look so peaceful when she sleep.innocet right?ahhahah yeah i lke that pic lolls

edora:besttie it been forever since i meet you miss you darn loads.i wan to go out with you but i scared you not free ahahaha msg me yeah (: yeah only a few more days left!

my sweetest sin.my gonna be fave food in class nxt year
___; cheryl and andy my 1241 seeing another girl in his hand
i hope cheryl dump him before anything ahahaha

dear; i love you manzxzxz

went back school yest.bought my stuff and all den i waited for dad to pick me up den he send me to bugis.i was late to meet dad.ahaha lucky he still can pick me up blah.den went meet yasmin and yunhi at starbuck they keep scratching thier neck to show me thier besttie thing it is nice.den we went to bugis street there look look for bags.i was tempted to buy the clothes there ahaha it was drving me nuts den we went back to bugis junction ahaha den look and play around there lolls.den they left cos i wan meet dear.how can boajian pass his nlevel?wth my hard work! and i thought his england is so darn fcuk up they worst thing is that ayrton need to go ite i mean i cannnot imagine ayrton in ite and daniel fail but he can retain i mean ayrton told me that my "baobei"england was so horrible how can he pass!!!i am so piss and and i play his heart manzxzxz before one of his paper!den meet andy cheryl ahaha cheryl so so darn high.went bought nike bag.den went to new urban male ahaha the red guy is GAYhaha he so darn funnyyyyyyyy. and he call me a p1 kid with no taste?wth i am so piss luh.he sae my nike bag not nice wth wth.blahblahblah den later on went grads huse.got scolded cos i was darn f%$^ret54363 late. agaga i wan to go aus or LA really soon!i wan to leave singapore!i wan to go there.i dun care luh.i wan this so badly for once i wan go and study there!but i must get good grades lke really good and prove to gands that i wan this badly!i do wan it badly i wan leave sinagore and come back in years time.dear will go with me maybe chyna will join us too!i jus wan leave this country!i dont wan to have another problem luh.i am dying slowly inside!
having fever again i feel lke i am in antartica.fcuk cant i die?

okie now i think muckzxzxz gang is having a problem.hais i dunnoe know why.can we have a confrence today?or lets go out and meet each other and settle it.i dont wan to break up soon we survive 2 years already and going on to three?i dont want to see everyone breaking off just lke that.where is one for all, all for one?where is the bond that we use to have.i wan to have another outingg okie not another but 4756756789279527457852875454545421871 more.can we stop fighting pls!i dont wan another problem.
i make up my mind i will go mia till everyone problem get better.yea i am running away frm it.i dont wan to say this but i had enough being the middle person.it kill me cos i dont wan to take side.it is not easy trying and hoping that everything is alrigght
everything is jus a misundersting.

jus finished watcing a cinderella story lolls.true love from the internet?eventhoug i watch it lke 2 years ago.the story seem sureal.ahahah.blah i got my shoe already!i wanted to buy the one with aleast some colour around it but i dont wan to play anymore hide and seek games with some teahcers .who cares i will go chnage it when i need colour in my life hahaha.going to get my book tmr with dad he jus comming to get the books den i am free to go.need to get my school bag too.maybe around town or bugis?i thought or going marina there .ahahaha if anyone is free tmr sms okie (:
blah i got a weird dream tdy i dunnoe i was typing on a new a laptop which i nvr seen it before it was white in colour.ahaha.i was just typing and typing non stop did even know wat i was typing luh.


what does all of this means?

i wan 99 rose i wan someone lke chloe bf!okie when he is sweet only

argh not i cannot stand some one attitude she is being a bimbo?i dunnoe she seem make me feel that she is the only one who cares for other people feeling.i dont wan to start another fight and tell that person cos i think it seem when i told _____ off about being____________________ and stufff i knew that we wont have a stable friendship anymore.maybe when we meet we wont we talk.somhow eveything seem to be sucky.people change to get famous?people change to get notice.i dun get it.why will you change for someone to like you.i have to friends who change maybe jus to fit in the crowd.i feel lke telling them off but i am jus scared that it will hurt our friendship cos they are the best people i have meet so far in my life.


anyone know a good volunteerism place?i want to be a volunteer but it seem hard to find organisations.tell me if you know one okie?

CHYNAAA SORRY I DIN CAME FOR YOUR PERFORMANCE!CHYNA I AM SUPPOSE TO SUPPORT YOU EVEYTIME YOU DANCE BUT IT I DIN EVEN WATCH YOU DANCE ONCE.SORRRRRYYYYYYY NOW I WILL TRY AND GO GET INTO ONE OF YOU DANCING CLASS SO I CAN SEE YOU DANCE AND WE CAN DANCE TOGETHER.I FEEL SO BAD.CHYNA I'M SORRRYYY

okie i am feeling so tiredddd and restless .i am sickkk.i am not happy that i am sick today cos i wan to go watch chyna dance.i thought i will be sick yest onlyy.arghh.forget it luh.dang been watching dvd with mom.hahaha.love storyyy lolls.boringgg..lolls.oh i saw the new pe shirt i like it cos it got collar and the material it is made of and at last it look a bit high class!but the back degsin look fugly!yeah!i like the old degsin on the back!boo!argh maybe i want to buy it.yeah i will buy it
oh christmas it commingggg lalala!
my list of thing to buy ahaha.so monday if i am well enough i will go shopping?i need to get a bag too i dunnoe which type i wan to get?hahaha too confusing for me?lalalal
wait i need to get my books too on monday ahahaha i wan get a new shorter uniform lalal

more pic with yasmin.till her broadband gets better

13th dec
went meet bridget yasmin yunhi and nisa at pasris mrt station bought stuff at white sand there den cab dwn to costa sand there meet andrea and diana.we play play play till we can check in.den went to the beach for a while ahahaha the sea was nice.after that we went to pick nicole and some of them up and went back.there we watch tv?ahaha yeah.nicole gave me that campus superstar guy pic ahahah i cant even pronounce his name luh ahahah.but he is kind of shuai.lolls and and he is frm shane school blah.so kind of playing around there den we decide to try to start the fire guess wat ahahaha we cant start the darn fire ! ahahah even the girl guide cant start them.they even use dry leaf from the ground ahahah.so they call andrea friend alex.ahaha he is in BB.he came darn late luh.so he and his green colour shirt friend help us start the fire and stuff .so we bbq through out the night ahaha untill the fire die down cos we dunnoe how to start the fire ahahha we try and it took us forever and we still cant make it.den people start leaving and stuff. we decide to clean the ground level.we wet the place and we bomb the place ahahah they were alot of screemingg lolls.den nisa yasmin yunhi bridget andrea nicole and me walk to cheers to buy junks.den a mat start to look at me.and said that my face look
familiar.den outside cheers his friend ask for my number, oh oh you know wat they buy i saw them buying beer!and i think they are in ite .ahahaa den thier group was walking in front of us and we walking behind.we walk the same way. they stay at costa sand too.what make it worst is that they stay behind us.ahahahah.den in the wee hours we were singing and dancing to smack that song ahahha we turn crazy.too much suger from the candy and snappel they we bought ahahaha and we play true and dare for 5 min cos we impose too many rule that we cant do for a dare.ahahaha.so we took a naps
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we all walk to the beach.ahaha we walk walk den walk back to the chalet to take a bath took us forver to bath.stupid cold water.we leave one great mess on the top level ahah.we check out and went to nadirah huse to put our bags den we went escape ahaha.went play a couple of ride we got wet on the first ride ahahaha darn funny cos we saw a couple of beng and this orange colour beng is darn funny hahaha .den the ship thing gave me a massive headace me andrea cannot stop laughing but i like it cos it seem that our heart will jus drop any moment .den haunted huse ahaha i jus make it through the darn door ahahah stupid guy dont wan to let me out they all went in i was too scared when i saw the cross.saw our senior with her bf ahaha cant say anything den it rain it was an okie rain den it rain more heavilyyy aahaha like crazy so we got really wet hahahah darn nice ran all around.so we decide not to stay anymore took our stuff at nadirah huse den bridget yasmin yunhi and andrea cab to tiong bahru.me and diana went to mrt station.diana went back home.i was suppose to find chloe at town but she was still at jurong when i was reaching there.so decide to meet her at jurong there ahahah.at jurong i got drench cos it was raining.ahahah den chloe and me talk and talk.i found out something from her ahaha i know it was so darn true luh!yeah i was right!lolls so we eat ice cream on a rainy day.den her friends came over i din know who they were ahahah.so we play and play chloe dont let my hand move cos there is foundation on my hand.i wanted to smear it on her face.cos she smear some eyeshadow thing on my face.ahahah people think we were crazyyy ahahah.den i ran away from her cos i din wan to go town cos my shirt is wet and i din feel good.there is a sharp pain in my throat when i talk.ahahah so i ran away from her.lolls den i wanted to head home but then mom call me up ask meet her for dinner.i was fcuking tired already but i went to meet her to eat dinner so head home around 9.den watch tv and did some stuff and went bed around 12?ahahah.

caleb is back! ahahah that cute guy who will watch every single taxi who drove past and who wan to marry me?ahahaha he is so cute and a pain.
nicole now like adriano 60% only ahahah after she found out that he is arrogant ahaha maybe he is not luh.ahahah so nic like him back to the maxzzzxzx!ahahah
shit my throat hurt and my head hurts too.ahaha maybe i will get sick!ahahhah

tag reply here

yunhi:i had loadssssss of fun with you guys.ahahaha yeah smelly us lolls. i need to finish my sms what.no it is not the paper song.it is the sorry song.and the video we make is so darn funny.smack that is my fav song from now ahahaa. smack that

bridget:ahahaha yeah it was super duper fun!smack that?lolls

shane: hahaha you so darn free now days huh?lolls

ahmad:you wan tag ur blog right.you send that to everyone luh.have fun in KL

nad:mei i miss you to the mazxz too!hurry free you days cos holiday will be over soon i wan to meet you up lehr.lolls hot things?lolls i think i know some part.lolls complete it okie when we meet ahaha.truckloads of love1

din blog for two days too lazy ahhaha nnthing much happendd
going to meet bridget yasmin yunhi they all later at 12 hahaha dang i am boreddd!

shane you havet reply my msg so much of me not replying your msg :P

dearr where you go?i havent seen you or talk to you in agesss!!

sian!woke up like late jus now.heard from dad that last week my fav teacher call me up.mdm yow call him up.ahahaha.she complain luh.she think tat i am not mixing with my friends anymore and stuff??huh?where she got this imformation from man?hhahaa do darn funny luh.but i love her.speaking of that i miss barn yard.ahahaha.lalala

1.Best place to cry?
in my room?
2. Missing someone right now?
dengsiaoping xD
3. The person/people you love the most?
i know and know one knows
4.Tell us your dream last night :
looking at some people cooking
5. Ever hate someone so bad?
yeah but forgive and forget
6. The biggest lie you heard?
at chloe place but not frm her luh
7. Ever lied to someone you love the most?
dont think so
8. What's the worst thing you've ever done?
back in those days
9. Wanna be someone else than ur self?
yeah i wan be you?
10. Ever slap someone?
dont think so
11. Last time u cried?
2 days ago
12. Biggest crush?
shhhssss
13. Last mall u went to ?
cwp?
14. Last memorable song you heard?
my blog song
15. Last person that hates you???
errmm......
16. Reasons why you hate someone?
cos she pauto on her bestfriend and she is a two face
17. Biggest lie you said?
my brother box not mine haha
18. What u wanna say to someone that u love?
stay by me dont leave me
2o. where you at ?
china?ahaha home
21. have you EVER failed a subject at school?
duhh!
22. what's on your mind?
how come no one is msging me?
23. Honestly, who are you chatting online with now ?
tralalala
24. what is it that you REALLY shouldbe doing right now?
nnthing
25. who are your best friends in theworld?
barn yard, Mwackganq my besttie
26. Honestly, who is the hottestperson you know?
dora she look like my use to be crash!
27. Honestly, are you a good friend?
dunnoe
28. Honestly, do you really thinkgoing to school is important?
My future and people are around there
29. Honestly, what are your dreams about, mostly?
ahahah blue hair teacher?
3o. Honestly, who/what makes you happymost of the time?
i make myself happy
31. Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?
0 msg on my inbox
32. Honestly, how old are you now?99 years old
33. Honestly, what song are youlistening to right now?
do i have to cry for you?
34. Honestly, who do you want to meetat this very moment?
lalala dengsiaoping!
35. Honestly, where do you like to bekissed?
hahhaha
36.Honestly, do you have a deadlydisease?
not sure right now
37.Honestly, do you hate someone rightnow?Nopeeee.
38.Honestly, who/what do you wanna hugright now?hahaha my hubby.
39.Do you smoke?centuary ago :D
40.Do you drink?
Alcoholic or plain water?HAHAHA
41.How long have you been in thiscurrent relationship?
wat relationship?
42.Do you really love yourgirlfriend/boyfriend?
does loving him counts?HAHAHA
43.What are your plans today?
sleep and play on ps2

i bringing sexy back yeah!

crash!


my crash look alike HAHAHA

talala



i lost my way cos dora said STRAIGHT lols

LOVE OR LUST?

jus got back home and stuff
went meet chloe around 4.30 den we go meet dora and alvin outside far east.saw debbie and her clique.hahha den went eat around there and stuff den took bus dwn to play pool actually to meet crash!hahaha but he wasnt there when we reach. so went some place start with M gagag and play pool.lolls.saw andy and cheryl and his grp of friends there.den play talk had my up and down there $@^&^^@ and took pic lolls. got to talk andy friend?lols chloe say he wanted to flirt with me lolls.danggg people dont get it right i am a singaporen!not indonesian!i jus have thier bloodddd.stupid andy friend.wont go through my family blood $^%$&%.then stay there for a long time.den went to cine.hahaha play para i suck at it.i need go practice more.heard that andy will send cherly home which is at paris ris and where andy live?jurong?hahah that is the most gentelman like i heard from andy since i know him luh!hahahaha.oh den outside cine guess who i saw?GUESS!!i saw craaaash outside cinee!lolls my heart race so darn bloody fast!hahaha i saw him toodyyyy woots! and and i got his pic in my hp already!ahahaha.but i prefer him in my hp then in real life.lallaa

cant post pic the stupid thing not workingggggggg mannnnnnnnnn

so maybe i will be going out later.gees not excited though.blah.i am not crazy about my crash anymore.been a while since i got high.i wan go pierce any part of my body.i want get numb again.

everything seem to change
i dont feel it anymore
is it gone?



i would have to admit that no matter how i try to deny it, i have certain "special" feelings towards you. Maybe it is coz i just enjoy times with you too much but dun get me wrong. the "special" feeling is not love, or like, or infatuation; or at least i can always control it such that it wouldnt be. Dun freak out! i'm very happy with the way we are now, and i want it to always remain so. But theres this dilemma here. If i find that i'm exceptionally happy with u, does it mean that our friendship is not purely platonic anymore? Or do we have to actually have tried (to be together), AND failed, to be pure friends, who never even thought of going further? Changing the scenerio such that you are a woman instead and i find that we really click very well, we can certainly just become good friends cant we? There's no further step to take. These are just feelings on my part, not implying that u feel the same way too. well all these are confusing me. I've actually thought of all these stuff already. Thats why i dun msg u everyday, the little things that couples should do. I have not thought as far as we being together.I would Never do anything that might spoil our friendship something which i hardly found in any guys that i knew.(: i am happy that we are this way.i just need to let this out.it been killing me

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seth:hahah go get ur self a cheena girlfriend.my mom help me choose him one.yeah he is hawt.i melt everytime i go back to cheena hahaha.i help him style his hair too.hahaha

yunhi:i wan dance with him.yeah!cos he is alreay 88 years old so wont live that long.need to have that one last dance.i will get mr ang to bring his to that type of place cos mr ang use that product.BK man?hhaha but my eye candy cuter wat.i will go change the song when i am free.yeah it make me cry too.hahahah

edora:hahah my eye candy.lolls who feed my grass everyday

bridget:i know you were dump founded right.it seem that my mom had good taste.hahah cos my mom help me pick him the match making service HAHAHAH

chloe:wat i din call you got lor 4 min ago i jus call you up hahaha i am going carzy not meeting you too.tmr tmr :) shuai hor my husband who feed me grass.lolls

delete my last post after i know wat happend i jus wanted to hide in a box cos mahera felt so dump. she is beeing so darn sensitive for once.i jus think way too much.so from now i will stop being sensitive and i will let you till me how i feel i dun wan to jump into conclusion and being prejudiced.
change my number (: come get it frm me okie:)
tags will be reply here so will be a pic

chloe:not bad?wat is not bad?hahhaha my last post hahahaaha it is cos i think i am becoming more and more sensitive.hahaha sure i will call you again :)
nat:i miss you too (: iloveyoutoo
yunhi:you went cut?realli? dont worry by class chalet i think it will look nice already.
bridget:i miss you to the mazxx
yunhi\bridget:wan see dengsiaoping?hahaha you guys know him in mr ang class hahahha.his pic?tell me that my husband look dashing hahahaha

dengsioping my china husband (:

my stupid cat is fighting argh let them die luh not my pet wat my brother hhaahah the stupid cat keep giving me flu.but they are funny.chasing after i dunnoe wat.dang been at home for 4 days already? din go out yest cos suppose to go out with parents den they had so on.so today maybe i'll go out with them.okie i wan to go out with them. where is dengsiaoping man i been waiting for him to come singapore and pick me up from the airport haiss maybe he dont wan me too.jahaha.its okie i will sit chloe airpork and go there.hahaha dang i am bored! .maybe i will start going out on thursday or friday i wan go shop.hahahaha (: there is actually no homework posted on that stupid thing.except for miss ying hw.but i throw the book away already.haioo forget it i dont wan to do.tra la la (: mia todayy or maye till 7 phone throw aaway already so pretand that i am dead till i contact you (: hahahha .oh class chalet comming up (:

this is wat board people do :) haiss i am effingg bored i watch tv for 2481728654 hrs already frm mtv to sponge bob to some bangla showww see how bored i am .i rather go back china like this. i want my dengsioping back ): i want go back china so bad! i miss him lke 45665168686565 this much! oh i went my crash blog he took a photo with a gal @%&^@ so darn close #%$^%$*&#

JANUARY:
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Creative. Original. Leader not a follower. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Genius. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Social. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Knows how to get a party going. Has an attractive personality. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. Gorgeous/handsome. Loves to dress up. On top of the trends. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. A FREAK in bed, on the floor, in the shower, on the kitchen table, etc. =)

eating some really nice prawnss.i nvr go out for like 3 days already and i been getting really weird dreams? and i can fall asleep really easily.and .ppl with colour hair hahah.haiss no one sms me for like days already.sian man.i guess i will not be going out till thursday i guess.i dont why i am feeling so darn fuck up luh
dont tell me i really miss him.define miss?

blah i am boredd i did nnthing and slp for like 2 days!!i jus slp and slp and i got no more eye bag!! hahaha.i got weird dreams.i dream that i saw a teacher with blue hair she dye that colour i was so angry that we fought cos of her blue hair den i start scolding cheebei and stuff to her and i end up in the office and got my points and i was so un happy with the teacher i went to her table and pick a fight?.i fought with her and stuff.hahah.and i din even care if i was going to get expel cos i was already sec 5 and i jus took my last paper?hhahaha darn funny .i am boredddd to deathh haiss i wan go sleep again.yeah i got my money frm my dad.yeah hahaha chloe let go eat prata with dora chyna they all HAHAHA.i am bored.i wan get my school bag for nxt year.hhahaha yeah.change the song of my blogg whats hurt the most
nice lyric i like it i dunnoe why maybe got something to do with my life?hahaha.ohh he is gonee blahhhh do i miss him?ermm hahaha maybe i do.ohh i dont even know when he will be back.lolls.haiss i am dying alreaadyy.


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok, but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you every where I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret, but I know
If I could do it over
I would trade, give away, all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do



wat does this means?am i loving you?o112o6<3

i am back hhaha.
my crush=denny=beng=high class=cluber=smoker
hahaha yest convo about denny hande jarold hahaha
lets speak proper english?? hahaha chyna idea wat good HAHHAHA lolls pig cow and everything came out haha.
den early in the morning dear call me up? ask me go her place as nat aly and tessa was there,they jus came back frm zouk or something?she call me ask me eat prata??hahah she say she got 4 bucks her treat!! HAHAHA den i go there did some stuff den mummy msg me ask go aunty huse cos someone bade i was like wtf like now you tell me.aly went swiming with them. me dear and her cous talk some stuff. den they left hahaha omg wat seth wore was niceeeeeee HAHAHHA yeah den i did some stuff wait till it was 2 den i left dear dun wan go with me meet shane cos she is tired hahah den i meet shane he was darn late hhahaah i waited for like 235422456 hrs dear msg me all along when i waited for him.hahaha.tdy was okie luh we jus slack here and there hahah we went to a bookstore!!and we read books !! cooking books hahaha yeah he was darn mean to me. wanted to watch happy feet but i wan watch it with my barn yard i think i dunnoe.den i gave him his present.hahah i think he was dumdfounded??dunnnnnoe luh
ohh tdy no fate the only one i meet was terenna and i dunnow who HAHHA and he got fate he meet his friend!! wth! not fair dear he is taking my luck as wat s***** did to me ahahaha i need c******* back!!! HAHAHA sry did not on phone jus know low batt and i was counting on fate like so bad luh.wanted to meet dora and chyna and dear HAHAHA den i left i think i left early cos at my aunty place my mom was not there.wth.heard bro nearly brought my 'sis in law' haha yeah den play with nephew hahah my cute little thing . my older cous ask me if i wanted to work? they will recommend hahaha i was like HAHHAH me?den they say they will try ask the levis store cos his friend is the i dunnoe wat.HAHAHA.i dun give a shit luh. den ate cakes hahah i like darn nice but it is giving me sore throat it is darn pain.den i play with my older cous my nephew games?yeah japan flag and stuff i really felt like i was 2 hahhaha. wanted to go slack with uncles at starbucks or somthing at airport but aunty was jus too tired den dad came pick us up. i realise i have eye bags yeah i use to have them during school terms not holiday.i need my beauty sleep HAHAHA

i think shane would wan see this pic hahahha.i am puting it up for him HAHAHA
2211o6 lets walk to a new begining <33