hiess!!!
okie this is lke a short one as i am lazy to write okie tdy wake up early den i bath den i eat ice cream and nw i am fat okie at last i did wat i wand to do all the time put up a password on my blog yea!!!
okie so peps here i am x))
eating happily yea i am fat!!! or atleast am okie
i am lke so lame
hahaha
lols
yea i am hungry again and
afifah have the best music in her blog seriously i wand to cry hearing the song yea it is lke hell nice yea it is lke hell sweet lol yea i pray that u will happy wif the gal u love
x))
lols yea okie that is lke bout it peps
yea ice cream rulez
and me
"wats in the air?"
duh air larx man i am lame
actually i dunnoe wat in the hell i am blogging bout see how lame i am ???
lols
yea
okie that all peps
lols
yea
cool
okie okie
lallalaalalala

okie i change d song of my blog yea a mly song so does who dunch understand wait till i get over the song den i change okie so i jus returned back home yae recape

9.00am wake up
9.15am bath
10.00am watch tv and eat
12.00pm call him he ask me go out
1.30pm meet him and his friends
dunnoe wat time took train go town and bugis
7.15 pm reach home
7.30 pm dad came and fetch me and mom go aunty huse
10.40pm here i am at home again

okie so far i habe gain at the most 3kg i notice that okie i just think that i habe gain 3 kg as i been eating a lot it seem that something is on my mind and i am lke eating just to ease the pain i think almost a whloe lot of my money is lke on food yea i can easily eat 3 tub of ice cream and still can eat a whloe bags of lays yea the big one!!so do u think that i am fat nw?? all i do nw is eat eat and eat and that is lke my job!!!
seriously i lurve food i can still eat even thought i am not hungry last time i will eat only if i am really really hungry and nw it seem that i just eat anytime i lke seriously when i sae anytime i sae evertime yea it kind of suck but it seem that i just cannot stop seriously i really cannot stop eating and tis holiday seem that the only place i am will be is at home yea at home kind of suck but i kind of lke it okie i hate it actually not bad seriously and nw if i habe to go to school i will just flag a cab okie nw i am jus a lazy pig okie wadever i dunch care larx!!!
haixz nw i lke life okie hate it okie it rulez!!!
okie wadever wif life!!!
i habe to lose weight okie i dunch really noe i habe i gain that 3kg i think
and this morning i was lke watching tv yea rugby and i think that game is lke kind of lame seriously i jus find it lame
okie den i was lke watching soccer and i find that lame too!!!
haizx maybe coz i watch too much of them
but tennis hell cool larz seriously hell cool!!
and nw if u call me i will not pick it up coz i hate it nw when peps call me so dunch ever keep in touch wif me until i am done wif me and the tv and the food!!!
food rockz!!!!
okie only junks sry other food u kind of.....
bye i going to get another tub of ice cream yea !!!!

hi okie nw i am lke feeling hell weak yea i am lke typing so slow to do this yest did not update as i was lke sick and i was lke on bed yea it is lke hell not fun now i cannot even eat ice cream and sweet stuff and wat more my best friend CHOCOLATE yea that thing,i really wand to eat that ting yea stuff nose larx cannot breath!!!as in properly yea it is so sucky to breath lke this now i noe ho chucky feel okie as in the rugrats hell cute man they all okie so now my fever is lke going to be gone except for my flu it is still there yea haizx!!!sian and somemore today is a monday!!!!yea a monday i wand to go out my mom ask me not to and today she did a lame thing!!!i mean in the morning she took my keys away!!!my thought when i wake up really wake up
"huh!!!wad will she get by having my keys???"
haixxz good thing there is Technology yea i hearts to the people who make them really nw i am lke doing nnthing!!!
haizx since that he went to school haizx stupid school!!!studying lke right now okie i need my meis to call me x))

hiesss!!!
okie yesterday went to watch a movie at cp yea we went there watch a movie zathura yea it was a a nice show actually when i see the ad it thought it was a hell lame show as it was the only show as school rock was lke half and hour pass already so we went to see larx it was lke hell cool larx really my heart my lke beating so fast it was really cool should go check it out man !!
i really lke it !!!even though i thought that it suck yea i really lke the cute guy he is lke hell cute larx i wand him as my son as he is lke so adorable okie hell adorable yea i wand him as my son!!!
after the movie end me chloe and chyna ran out actually chyna dunch noe why we ran me and chloe ran as we wand to use the toilet really bad okie hell bad and it was lke funny as it was a first time i ran out of a cinema lols yea had loads of fun yesterday yea jiemei forever!!!yea

hiess!!!
yest nvr blog haizx i dunch care wat i wand to sae nw is that i am fat yea i am fat really fat i dunch noe now i am lke fat and now i cannot sleep at night lke how i use to sleep lke a pig and nw i can oly sleep for a few hrs yea it is lke suck i can stay up till 5 or 6 and den go to bed and den wake up at 9.wth rite haizx!!!HAIX BLOG ANOTHER TIME BTW I HABE NO MORE SLEPPING PILL!!
mom dunch wand me to take anymore man it suck man stupid mom and whiee this is stupid i am lke only habing a few hrs of sleep less then 8 man haizx can i habe my sleeping pill pls haizx i wand to take it man haizx i wand i wand i wand i wnad i am dying to sleep hazix my mom is taking me to a counsellor and i am lke wa t the hell okie wadever wat i really wand nw is to sleep and no more food yea all my junks i am lke throwing them away and i am going to jog at least twice a day ....
no more food
jogging twice a day
sleeping pill
slim mahera
=
happy mahera x)

hiess!!!okie yest day nvr update i was lazy that why okie yest did nnthing except that i went out wif him yea den i was lke shock to find out something shocking yea....
i was stupid!!!
i was an idiot
in the first place why i trusted him??
why i was really stupid all the word he sae was all bullshit hw i trust him in the first place anywasz!!!
wat happened if we did not meet ur ex??
huh???
den i would be jus an idiot...
it is lke sucky wat i habe learnt bout u
nw i cannot even trust u anymore
i noe when i call u yest day nite been saying sorry
but i how can i forgive u when u told me that ur last ex
was frm primary school okie i noe it was a moment of folly
but at least u can tell me the truth right from the start
nw i am lke really scared if i can trust u again.....
<3>
x)
blog wat i been talking to my friend another day

hiess lets make a quick one as i wand to go out later yea....
wake up 8.30 am okie i was hell late....really i was lke piss wif everyone did not wake me up okie i bath and do all crap and leave home at 8.45 yea.it lke start at 9.00 am yea...i went down flag a cab and go school was late dunch care walk slowly so reach teacher sae nvr mind coz she noe it was raining so got jam so did all crap stuff went back home larx and now blogging....yea...later going out wid chloe chan pe ling yea!!!
okie i am lke hell tired yesterday and now dunch feell lke going out as i am lke sleeply really sleeply but can't go to bed yea....
yesterday i sleep at 3 going 4+++....yea i was lke chatting den talk talk and went on wif more blah blah blah dun feel lke it so switch com off coz had to call that guy he was STUDYING ?? wth okie i pei him so talk talk talk talk balh blah blah yea till 4...i ask him go bed coz he later got school so i too went to bed and den i start thinking of the FUCKING PAST i did which had a impact on my life right now and it was lke i felt so STUPID USELESS .....YEA I AM STUPID AND USELESS YEA I AM FEELING THAT I REALLY SHOULD DIED RIGHT NOW !!!!
HAIZX I HATE LIFE IT IS LKE....
WHY DID GOD WAND ME TO BE BORN ?
PS: I HOPE THAT CHLOE CHAN PEI LING IS AWAKE x))

hiess!!! yea hiess sup people i am now happy coz i wand to be dead yea i really wand to...living in this world means nothing to me...yea
it really suck big time i really wand to be dead whiee can't i find a person who i can reveal wat i am feeling right now whiee can i not find a person who i can trust it is not that i cannot find i jus dunch feel that they are...all of my freind noe me for not being the emo type and i only burst only ONCE AND IT WAS WIF NATASH <3>
YEA and me talking to this guy which i barely noe him....so i am not use to it i jus dunch noe whiee now i lke forgiving peps last 6 months ago i am a cold blood gal and now i am jus a gal who is lke CHLOE i dunch noe whiee i dunch wand to be lke her i noe it is better coz i am lke nicer but i wand to be the mean me the one who dunch care and have the attitued that i use to habe i noe till now i habe an attitued but i wand the last time i noe that was the past....
when i think bout it i wand my past i really wand my past coz i wand to change some of them coz it seem now it had a huge impact on my FUCKING LIFE right now and i dunch noe who i can turn to also whiee is it hell hard for me to be living in this world i wand to be the old carefree gal the one which dunch care...
AND NOW BEING ME SUCK BIG TIME whieee
I AM LKE WONDERING WHO IN THE HELL I CHANGE FOR?
OR AFTER THAT LONG TIME AFTER I FORGET BOUT GARY MAKE ME WHO I AM OR MAYBE THE MEAN ME IS JUS A GAL WHO WON'T HEEL AFTER THAT BREAK UP WIF GARY BUT EVEN IF THAT IS THE CASE I DUNCH EVEN LOVE HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE I REALLY NEVER LOVE ANY GUY IN MY LIFE COZ I DUNCH EVEN NOE WHAT IT MEANS...
YAE TO MR L I YET HABE FEELING FOR EUU I JUS WAND US TO BE GOOD FRIENDS FOR THE TIME BEING REALLY...
and to NADIRAH, VAMPIRE##,ANGLE,NATASHA <3>
I COME UP WAT WILL HAPPENED TO MY LIFE TOMORROW IF I LIFE TO THAT DAY
<3>
**G'HOST

hiees!!!
jus woke up after a few hrs of sleep i think that i sleep frm 6am all the way to 8 only...this few days cannot sleep eventhough i am hell tired yea yesterday went out go aunty huse den after that i went out wif him yea we went town yea !!my first time going there wif him and we walk and walk throught out the place yea i bought stuff yea!!!he too bought some stuff den had fun...den walk walk walk....saw his friend den his friend ask me if i am his gal i was lke no no how can i be we ....are jus frined...he was lke Embarrass....so continue walking we walk all over the place with out him complaining that he was tired yea unlike SOMEONE hell piss then went to cine thought of finding chloe coz she at kbox there wif her friend so den i thought i dunch wand btw chloe call me today can i wand to go ur mom salon to cut my hair some more yea.....yea at cine saw him!!!yea that guy who laugh wif me on wed!!!yea he still have that video clip yea he ask me where is my frined who play para i was lke he's not my frined he is a human which my mei happened to noe yea he even ask me if i wand to see the video clip again i was lke u very bad le so then after that i walk off....yea it was fate that i meet him again....if i meet him again tell me ur name le??? i think that he is around 19++ coz he is lke old yea....during that time it was aroung 6++ he ask me wand to go river than i was lke for wat? mahera stupid mah duh!!!walk
yea took train go there coz too many peps at the taxi stand....yea walk walk walk around there wif him yea i lurve it there it was hell nice larz...yea!!!den we bought drinks frm tea and leave around there and walk off and talk yea!!!
we talk bout stuff den he ask me stuff yea stuff!!!
hahahha nw only nat noe coz she call me around 11++ lols....
yea then later walk wif him to mrt station go home coz it was lke 8++.....
yea than sit trian go back home....yea he ask me if i wand him to send me back home i was lke it alright i noe my way home actually frm cp both of us took a cab to go back home yea ....
really had fun but too but when i habe fun all that i can think is him i guess i will not stop think bout him unless he tell me that he is a prince of another princess yea but i noe that he do nor habe the guts to do it....
p.s i was hungry coz i nvr eat since wed morning untill that afternoo i went out wif me so u cannot fault me for eating so much!!!cannot wait to see u again yea!!!

hiesss!!!
yea listening to slipknot song yea it rawks!!!
yea....
haiz going out right bout nw coz i habe to wait!!!
yea he is lke waiting for me but i call him that i will be late loser le me!!!
haizx see u on sunday or monday coz i will not uptdate coz i will be lke running away frm hime i hate mom dad everyone yea
!!!!
haizx
lurve this song

Ohh I wanna let you know That I'll always love you babySometime I think about Everything that we've been through And I pray that you would just open your eyes I love you I need you So please don't throw our love away Since the day you and I snuck away to be aloneI knew from that night something special went onIt must have been the first kiss You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this I felt the same way too but nothing stays the sameI'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain You were the one that always made things right I promise you this though you got a friend for lifeMaybe one day we can try it again And maybe things can be a little different So lets just kiss and say goodbye Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cryI've given everything I loved you endlessly But when it comes to me You don't even notice me I've given everything I loved you endlessly But when it comes to me You don't even notice meAll that's mine is yours that's what I said Treat you with love and respect in everyway You wanted I gave you need me I was there Now you treat like if I'm not here I love you and I need you don't wanna let go If you want somebody else please let me know Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside Is this the price I pay for handing you my life? I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there Just remember I loved you it will never be the same Gave you everything and you threw it all awayI've given everything I loved you endlessly But when it comes to me You don't even notice me I've given everything I loved you endlessly But when it comes to me You don't even notice meI gave you my good and my bad My heart and my soul, My trust my money my time, What more can you ask from a man Even when times are hard I held out my arms and held you Even excepted you through whatever weatherBut now I feel it we're at the end of the rope Whatever we had now I gotta let go Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall To cover my tears Wishing I could replace all those wasted years Of loving someone who couldn't love me backAnd now again I gotta start from scratch But I know I've given you my everything I've given everything I loved you endlessly But when it comes to me You don't even notice me I've given everything I loved you endlessly But when it comes to me You don't even notice me

hiess!!
yesterday i went backk to school yea i went backk to school for school thksgiving.yea so we went to st andrew church there at city hall coz there is our main church yea it was my 2nd time going there it was nice the service was hell boring the most boring one i had in my life..yea coz they talk alot..i nearly fall a sleep...after the thing we all went to town actually we split i went wif chloe and chyna went to meet her mom yea!!!
den i went to eat wif chloe yea i lurve wat i eat yea!!!
den we meet this 19 years old guy yea he is an ambulance guy or somethink lke that that guy lke chloe yea lols....
den we went to town yea took train yupx...
den we walk the whloe of town yea!!!
went to cine and they play para2...
i did not play coz i was in U but chloe play coz she wand to play and she got jacket wif her...
this is where the funny part comes
the guy was a pro at para but he put too much soul in it way too much yea!!
i laugh and laugh yea!!!meet some new guys there coz he was laughing wif me too yea meet new peps!!
den walk walk blah blah blah blah
den went to chloe mom shop to cut hair the both of them highlight the hair
i cut yea i got a new hair cut i can spike my hair coz i can!!!
yeas!!!
but my mom sae it is funny coz my up is lke really short and my down is long so
i habe a punk hair cut yea!!!
can sae so larzx!!!
yea today i am cutting the up more short so i can really spike my hair up!!!
yea i lurve it yea!!!
tdy going there again!!!
i am still hurt coz hear out the lyric in this song...nw i cannot even sleep anymore yea i jus dunch noe whiee
'GHOST**

hiiees!!!
mom wand me to turn in early as tomorrow i habe school in the morning at 9.45am crazy le...so early coz holiday i come back mus be around 1 but tis one before 12 somemore...
i put this song coz i realli lurve this song i do coz got a few meaning as i lke song wif meaning only dunch noe whiee...
i been asking myself whiee i can get him out of my mind when i noe he habe i really cannot do it even thought there is another guy which really lke me but too bad i lke him only coz he is shuai whiee can't i be my old self back where i will only lke shuai ge but nw a shuai ge is standing right infront of me and i am still holding up to the past which habe no meaning to it some how i wand to Pretend that nnthing really happened and that i nvr had feeling for him so i can go to this guy i dunch noe whiee i really feel so stupid coz i am holding up to the past i really dunch wand to think of him and wand to move on wif life but i really cannot i really wand him back but i noe that will not happened as i noe that he is happi wif his life but now all i wand is to forget bout him and go move on wif life wif him i am sorry that i make u wait and i cannot promise euu that we be together but if we do than only i will Believe love at first sight even thought i dunchh really lke euu.i really wand to sae thks for being in my life...x))
i am blogging this as i noe that he will not read this thing and i cannot hold it back anymore...

hiess...yesterday went back home around12am yea and after that was lke tired and stright went to bed okie did all sort of stuff gal would do before sleeping yst went to see my grandfather and grandmom i dun even noe they exist and i was lke omg dad how many grandmom and granddad i habe....
yea they were pretty sweet coz they hug me and i was lke okie i jus follow the flow yea and my dad told me that one is a vp use to be and the wife is a teacher and i was lke alright cool coz it is..when were bout to leave they ask me to come there again and i was lke i see first after going two of the "grands" huse we to my mom side which i habe a lot of fav uncle and aunty we meet at one of my cuz huse and all i can remember is that i play wif the baby yea...he is lke hell cute larx...seeing him again tis sunday...
den all of my mom side not all larzx but a few of us den went out together yea......
den went to hospital and i was lke yea hospital theere was nnthing and den went to peps huse and den went home except for my famaily we went to another person house and den went back home den i went backk home do all gal stuff and went to sleep den i wake up and did some stuff and nw i am blogging this while i'm listening to tong hua and i running after euu which is a christian song it hell nice !!!
btw any of my meis wand to go out i wand to le i am lke hell sian at home sms or call me can i dun wand to stay at home all alone yea beri scary coz mader,fader and bro will come back only at nite so i am sian!!!
hazixz.....

CHLOE CHAN PEI WEN!!!
eeu promise me that euu will not fight wif ur mom again
wat happened yesterday??
huh???
chyna mei somemore talk to ur mom
gal wats is ur problem???
haizx talk to euu on wednesday
hopefully i will be alive haizx....

okie eunough bout that ....
i wand to tell u wat happened last last wed yea that was long
me cassendra,emily(hopefully i spell it corectly) and chloe went to the church to pray and there was this guy who help us switch on the light and all sort of stuff yea den all of us pray and emily was the last one to get up i wonder wat in the hell she talk to god maybe bout guys haizx...
den as we were about to leave the church that guy stop us and sae whiee all of a sudden we all wanted to go and pray we sae we need to tell god to forgive our sin and he sae that he was a pastor i was lke really arz u are a pastor u dun look lke on duh!!!he was kind of youn g to be one and he look shuai not that arz but how can he be one right?
den he yea i dun habe to wear a white thing to be one than i was lke okie okie
then he sae if we got any problem and he sae if we do can look for yahuai and all sort of stuff...
den we talk bout something which i dun wand to blog as it is bout religion not that we sae bou bad stuff or lke that is wat the 4 of us chose the right path to follow and duh i am confuse right nw which one to take and when i tell that some one yea my frined i thought that he will at least support me or something and did he
nope!!!
he did not and i was lke waat the fuck dude and i was lke getting piss and all sort of stuff and wishing that i did not tell him that thing as i did not noe that he is not that open minded and all sort of stuff...
duh wat do u except from someone who pray eversingle time i am not insulting u or something lke that i am jus expressinfg my anger and i am dam angry...

wang le you duo jiu zai mei ting dao ni dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi wo xiang le hen jiu wo kai shi huang le shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me


ni ku zhao dui wo shuo tong hua li du shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le

wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

ni ku zhao dui wo shuo tong hua li du shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le

wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju


wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

hey sup?
still living??
i am still yupx okie i am not going to blog how am i going to die as words has been spreading so i will keep this to myself and u peps jus come for my funeral..
i once sae that i hate kids yea little chlidren will i dunnoe all of a sudden i started lkeing them since i became an aunty yea my mom is a grandmom as my cousin Adopt a baby and duh mahera started playing wif this 1 months ++ baby i find them hell cute...
maybe i might post it when he is a years old yea he is super cute..
i jus wand to post this to show my other cousin that i lke children as i am going to babysit him next week for a few hours....:)
i am doing some good deed before i depart from this world...:)
<3>

hies currently listening to tong hua and i am running after euu song it is a hell nice song larx both of them.i am still not over wif maia song and kelly clarkson song.all of them rock.now i am all alone in this world yea i am all alone i am lke an idiot to be in this world.
yea thought of killing someone but too bad that person is dead yeaa he is dead cool right haiz i hack care him.
later i wand to go out and go shop for stuff actually only a wallet lar
and i lurve this part of the i am running after u
'i dun care wat people will sae i'm running after euu'
and lurve maia song too
'i can see myself get over euu i cann feel myself again and i noe that i will make it through coz i dun need euu'
and when ever i listen to tong hua song i will feel sad i dun noe whiee....
and i am happii i am lke hell happi i nvr lurbe lurveing this place of nightmare i seriously does i make me feel lke going to the beach yea go there i really wand to go there all by myself all alone at night yea it going to make me jump into the water yea alright i will end here
haizzzx....
hate lifffffeee so much whieee i am lke this ???
i am lke clueless....haizx..

ever dream that u are in la la land and wish that euu are dead??
well i habe actually i haben't but i wish to dream lke that but haizx as for nw let me put up a fake smile and be who i am not....jus dun get me whiee i a lke this all of a sudden....

okie jus nw went to school but all of a sudden i dun feel lke it coz it is lke late and i was feeling down duh it was lke 1 already okie dun care jus go larx den went to jurong point and eat den go home larx...

at there try and find a wallet for me as i dun habe one i nvr had lols wat do u except frm me nw i am watching one tree hill last espisod wat so i watch larx i dun care must watch it is lke my fav show lols and i am lke listening to maia song i dun need youu and scum and later i wand to blast off kelly clarkson song gone and because of youu.....

seriously i am in lurve wif that song haizx hell nice larx and nw i am thinking wat should i eat okie i wand ice cream andChocolate
mahera wand to turn fat!!! and later can die too!!!
dun habe nnthing else to blog so bye bye
dun mish me okie???

change my blog skin i only lke the words and black my fav colour!!
thks ulin for helping me!!!
later i'm going to school haizx sian le
okie nw aryton and chloe is lke over that happened a few day ago
still they are friends!!cool right???
hey thks for ur company yest thks really meant alot to me :)
haizx i still wand to end my life
i dun noe whiee i am lke confuse
it is not about anything or wat so ever i jus dunnoe wast it is all about i noe it is jus me
i wand to be dead i wand to die i wand to be in lalala land i noe hell is not a lalala land i jus dun noe wat got over me??
i am lke clueless all of a sudden i wand to go to the beach and drown there
i think a thousand and one ways for me to be dead !!!!
i dunnoe whieee
haizx i dunnoe le and now i am crazy about this song i dun need you
i seriously i dun need you but i need someone i dunnoe larx
i wand to pray
i wand to go church i hope that god will help me
pls i am dying i dunnoe if i have been puting up a fake smile haizx
i dun wand to go school so sian le...
haizx it is for my own good pls larz let me be wat i am
and i really lurve maia song i dun need you....

hiees i am alive and i am happi:) i am very very happi wid my life this happened on thursday went to aunty house and uncle house gosh i dun even noe where in the hell half of them live i was lke "daddy you sure you noe where they live?"haizx fancy me asking that question haizx but i had a happi day so friday went school den went to mei house and had fun i guess then sat went out again and visit people again gosh i did not know i had so many aunty and uncle.
sunday a whole lot of peps came to my house yea whole lots!!!i was lke omg who are this people???
as for me i was in my shorts andd just in my room.only went out when they arrive and went backk home.
yesterday went to make an appoiment wif a doctor yea i am seeing a doctor i was acutually quiet piss wif the doctor coz they make me wait for an appoiment i also hear that the fee is going to be expensive very i was lke whyieee u still wand me to see him yeas my doc is a him a very clever him when i noe that i will die soonn so are you right ???
everyone will...haizx sian le at home even go out still see the same thing again and again life is worthless i dun wand to live who wand my seoul i wand to give it away i am serious
and btw lurve maia song "i dun need you" serious it is hell nice i had enough !!!

hi hi!!!miss me ???
i do miss all of u..(yar right)
err err lately i have been sick
sick and tired of life
been crying all day long cannot sleep i nw taking sleeping pill again in my life
i been having fever lately for days dun wand to tell my mom and dad
i once thought of ending my life!!!seriously i hate life i nearly kill myself on monday serious the knife was at my wrist!!!
den all of a sudden i cry...
i now hate god for giving me this life!!!
i hope it will end soon really soon...
haixz i dun wand to live i wand to die
serious i wand to die
i noe that i will go hell but i dun mind i am sick and tired of leaving in this life
i wand to be dead i wand to and now i am lke angry wib myself!!!!
whyiee i did not die in the plane
now i hope that i will die and not tell my mom that i am sick
feeling so weak right now!!!
gosh i wish that i will sleep forever
and pop all the pill ALL of them
haizx...
may i rest in hell...