today was the bomb
at last i went to town
after lke 1234567892 days of not going there
i dint even know revoltage is not at far east anymore
wth i feel so lost lar
hahahas
okie so school was practically was okie
cos lesson was alright
and the test fail fail lor
only a test wont die if fail right (:
so after school went to town
with atiqah yasmin matesha nisa
went see clothes (:
i wan go buy some of them at there lar
blah blah balh
cant wait till friday (:
learning journy on that day
and we will running around chinatown cda there :)
fun i hope it will be fun
school is really strees after knowing i stop slacking in class
but i am happy (:

school was tirying

dancing was fun learn jive :D

hahaha i got the steps right i hope

den lesson ms ng cam scarry as i could have seen

but she is alright.blah cme today which i will do later

cos i yet do argh tried sia

den had prodots jus now and went for maths class

den finished up everything in the coursework

den head home and i feel so dead dint want to wake up in the bus.

someone pray that i will go study later i am hoping i will

and that i will finished up my cme

saying is believing

but doing it is another thing

baby thank you for all the time

i guess were are now back in square one

the time is up

we live in a harsh world

but baby i'll still love you like i use to

i guess your not worthy of my time anymore

i cant stand waiting anymore

i feels like i am going to mars

taking me years and years

yes,i gave up easily cos i aint strong with out

goodbye my lover

goodbye my friend

you have been the one

the only one for me

quote"you know that you want his heart but he is confuse with what he wants"

got back home Monday is lke the most stressful day cos there is

ms ramalah class which is the bomb which make

ppl think of her class instead of paying attention

in class which is horrible hahah so yeah was doing hw

in some other teachers class and i did crap and i had

to redo everything due to the crassness nw i have to go find

so recipes blah by tmr.got back test paper dont want to talk about it
no syf today so did class deco which look nice

but class in a mess another D i think

blah den went to meet chloe at mac there

walk alone frm school lar

den saw maimai hahaha so sad i was alone

if i was with yasmin they all will laugh lke mad

den i saw yasmin nisa matesha namira atiqah yunhi at mac

should have walk with them if i knew blah so there slack

eat island creamery :D

den head to park oasis hhahhaha

den meet some new friend :D

hahah rashid? lijie and a very cute gay hes kind of geeky

so stay there and play with cards rashid the Indian guy can read

love life thought poker cards and we play non stop lar hahaha

so it was funny and stuff so kind of laugh and kind of got sad

btw it is really accurate so those who want to get read go there meet him

hahaha maybe he will charge you cos we make him do till he is tired

so got kind of fed up with us blah so went back home and sit train like i use to :D

haahahha with chloe that is but she went to join them back

i wan to meet that indian guy ask play that poker game again

school is upper fun
okie lesson was alright cos Mr goh still talk crap

and is either we did presentation or the teacher dint come in

assembly today went to hall had the class commendation

went over to dear house :D

blah sort of by force lar

and i was bored at home so meet her there

play edit pic too :D

den Cheryl came she a crazy bitch lar hahah

den went to swim blah i dint want to swim

but still i got wet due to the rain and the hugging i got

blah yeah it was funny

yuhong got piss for dunnoe god reason

andy and him left as went to meet liza

hais i dunnoe wat to say about that person lar

i mean girls are either dumb or just take by his honey sweet words

which is all crap

looks can be deceiving

who cares lar i cater to myself

den went out to have dinner with them

it was fun cos we were disturbing some ppl there

ahaha den head home :D

it painful for me to do this

cos that's the last thing i ever did

i had so much to say to you

but you walk away

you left me stand there

raindrops keep falling

but i decide to let my heart do all the talking

cause everything is too much for me to handle

i let it lose and it just crawl up by it self
far far away from me
i use to be scared to know what it is like
but i guess it wasn't scary at all
i felt brand new like a newer person
i held my ground high this time
i remain strong

argh jus got back frm school.walking with eyes nearly half close. anyways today was a day where i got shock. today was more lke my lucky day.i guess i have been working my ass of lar . hhahahah .pass my maths :D and mother tounge :D hahah den had lesson. mr goh scolded me lke loads of time no not doing anything and making hand movement! the common test was lke shit cos it had been a while since i am not sure wat to write answers to the papers which was all so bull cos someone dint study more lke nothing could go throught this thick head of mine lar! oh i dint know standing in front of the class is scarry talking on wat you should do.it seem that i was talking to myself cos i feel so lonely. now i dont want to be a teacher cos i am hell shit scared that i could go to IMH if i cannot control the class which make me go nuts. haha so no matter wat tourcher i can give to them as a teacher i cannot teach so i have to drop the teacher part. hahaha. had classes till lke 3.30 and went back home due to tiredness and lazyness to walk around anywhere at town or vivo.maybe i should try going else where lke i dunnoe holland to eat or somthing. saw alif on the way home omg i dunnoe why i was being a assgotic bimbo lar.

ohh sorry mak aku jet toe ! i make you sing the same lyric again and again!hahaha :D

anways saw the tag hahha my aunty laily came to tag me :D hahah uper sweet of you hahhaha dont stress on yourself so much okie :D

good bye my lover
goodbye my bus
you have been the one to die at the grave yard
i wan to forget wat i had
i wont hold it on anymore
so i send you packing in a bus
and it goes
tick tick tick
BOMB DYNAMIC
BOMB BOMB DYNAMIC :D
this is how my love for you end

DON'T SAY WHATEVER COS I WILL MAKE IT FOREVER!!!
HAHAHAH
okie now i have to wake up
stop becoming a stinking slacker and slack lke no one business lar

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with youIt's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cryDon't cryDon't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go aloneI must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life

Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mineValentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamityPeace, Serenity

i hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with youIt's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cryDon't cryDon't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da

school was alright today

i guess dint learnt anything

except for maths which remdind me

oh shit hw

ms chang dint come so free period

ran the first and 2nd level of the libary with out my shoes

and sing in the middle of the libary hahahha

blah it was fun den sit outside class do hw somtime i am glad that

i am in a girl school :D hahhaha balh den i dunnoe do wat

den went to jp with yasmin amalina atiqah and mateshaa

haha laugh lke some sheep there

some pic of them but i am lazy to upload them

hahah tmr lar i need to study for test tmr hhahha a

mr sami here i come :D

i so want someone to load the one tree hill epi
i need to watch itttttt so freaking muchhh lar
hahah killing me lar blahhh
i still need to wait
i will cos i been waiting for everthing :D

jus came back frm KL

blah it is alright play para and ppl were looking

hahaha

wish more shops were open lar

but i still manage to shop

hahaha zara was the bomb

all the clothing line were the same as singapore one but

i had my mom with me who cares

food there was great :D

went to meet aunty and granduncle went luching together

she is so old :D ahhha

she might be reading this

she is only 20 :D ahahha but i have to remove the aunty

at high way there aunty and uncle fought yeah

in the middle of the high way which was scarry cos they left the car

and i got a stupid bitch in my tag bored tsk this happend when i am gone
hahaha hais i am so sick anyways school tmr cant wait to meet eveyone :D

lazy to post pic lar

another time

Raindrops, fall from, everywhere
I reach out, for you, but your not there
So i stood, waiting, in the dark
With your picture, in my hands
Story of a broken heart

I'm trying and hoping, for the day
and my touch is enough to take
the pain away Cause ive searched
for so long the answer is clear
I will be hoping we dont let it disappear

Stay With Me
Don't let Me go
Cause I Cant Be Without You
Jsut Stay With Me
And Hold Me Close
Because I've Built My World Around You
And i Dont Wanna Know whats it
Like Without You
So Stay with Me Just Stay With Me

I've searched over and over
for many many times
For you and I is like those stars
that light the sky every night
Our picture hangs out of tune
remind me of the days
You promised me we'd always be
and would never go away
thats why i need you to stay

ahahah CYN tdy
so bull crap lar had drill today
den on the way back to class ms yati figure why my hair was on my ear
blah she made me take it out
but it wont come out so her best friend came and help her
ms kaur help me take out yeah pulling out my earing
bull crap !den ms yati told me if i dare pierced another part of my body she will make sure everyday got sport check!
wth she dont understand me :( i need somthing to numb myself
blah concert was okie dint get to watch
the perforance was crap like shit!
den after school want to go town then miss like a few bus cos full so went to vivo with everyonee yeah had loads of fun lar went crazy at the playground hahahah den some left went so went shop around.yasmin bought shoes nice lar.den went to harbourfront there big mall?
went crazy again there at big mall?
hahah yeah today was fun



i wan to give this all up
but i simple cant
only if i say that my heart is empty
you know how badly i want to empty my heart
but i just cant
why cant for once you tell me you have someone new or somthing
falling in love is easy
but falling out of love ....

you know how much i love you
you mean the world to me
but it seem like you dont care

14o2o7

valentine day was great!

hahha present,letters were every where!

i got load of them thanks everyone!

chloe for the cookie that i help bake!and letter

chyna for a passport holder?

nadirah for the cookie

diana for the toy&letter

yasmin for the choc & letter

atiqah for the choc

yunhi for the roses

jasmin for the heart thing

ama for the letter

andrea for the letter

alfee for the letter

seema for the letter

alyssa for the rose

charlean for the rose

ms chnag for the choco :D

sharmila for the roses

after school yest went to dora school

see soccer :D on the way there dear lost her wallet!dont be sad the stealer will go hell lar

den saw jeremy ther :D and his act cool friend!see bishan park play! hahah see chloe cheena mly crash lar errm i think he cant kick the ball lar maybe cos i nvr see the whole match!

den blah went back to have dinner at jp so went with dora and this guy dunnoe how to spell his name lar.he is shy i must say hahah help him out a little.blah den had dinner and head aunty huse i have no house key and mom and dad went back home late

i had an lonley valentine day but i still love it lar!cos gary ask me out hahaha but i turn it down cos i was all the way at toa payoh there but that is not the point!i have another ear pierced! :D

i loveee it cos when it when i going to pierced it i was thinking of someone

and how i need to numb to keep my life going

now i am ready to my tounge one but i think i will wait till 2 weeks so nnthing will happend to my ear!

to muckxzx gang i really dont understand all of you guys

i am close to everyone but as group i dont feel it

i was looking forward to spend v day with all you lar

it has been a while since we hang together

i think frm now i guess i will just leave it lar

i dont want to care anymore about any outing or fights between any of us
i dont give a damm wat is going happend to our clique lar

forget it lar might as well dont call ourself muckxzx gang when we hardly hang together

i dont give a shit anymore!

promise someone that i will study hard

promise someone that i will slack with him and not beat around the bush

but i had my valentine wish nvr came true :(

15o2o7

tdy was okie had maths test dint sleep at class la

den nnthing much till i had maths test which were okie

blah blha den errm i dunnoe oh had the chinese new year thing for tmr

dry run i think :D

cant wait till tmr lar ! hahah

i will stop pretand tat eveything is okie
when it is not
i try not to think of it but
i cant help it
eveyday i wake up with a little hope
that i would at least see somthing
but i just i have to really get the track
going and know that the day will nvr come
cos i dont wan to keep having high hope


lonely valantine day :(

anyways happy valantine day people

talk to gary yest night (:
hahaha omg he is so dump and sweet lar
i laught my head off lar
cant wait to slack with him

tdy school was alright
sfy was tiring really really tiring
i wan to die already can faint already


somtimes i wish i could wake up from this dream
a dream where i felt that i lost you
i took thing for granted when i had you
but having the feeling that you arent with me make me feel so lost

is this an ending good bye?

jus with out the good bye

well thank you for being there for me

thank you for keeping me strong

thank you for believing in me

thank you for eveything

slit my heart open cos i crave your name

iloveyou

more pic with cikgu alisa :D decide not to put pic form aneesah cos i look spastic or cikgu azna look spastic hahahah

still waiting

i am at the height as her :D

our junior were so very girl like to be slow so we had tons of time to cam whore

she trying to be tall HAHAHHA :D

her oh so pink towel :D hahahah

the toilet we use to use :D memorise :D hahahha

jus woke up.hais i am still sleepy.woke up at 7 jus now den went meet dora.we went to slps to play netball hahha so the teachers came super duper early haha den had some warm up and stuff. the best part was running around the blocks yeah pass through my p6 class and memory went back to time.haha but the room is small i must say.hahah den dora taught me some netball stuff haha it is quite easy to learnt the footwork's and it was really fun.talk to some p6 and they were so cute lar.one girl natasha the GD? ask me if i am mly i am lke hhahaha yeah i am lar wat else could i be?but i feel so sad that they were really burnt out by the running cos me and dora still have plenty of energy to continue running! hahaha den after that cikgu alisa and azna went mac with us :D yeah my last year junior were really nice. hahah so cikgu ask me and dora if we have bf?hahah we keep having lonely valentine days lar.so ask cikgu if giving birth was painful and stuff hahaha it is lar!hahaha so funny lar! so my juniors have bf :D not bad lar! me and dora stil have a long way to go hahaha den camwhore outside there hahah yeah my is cikgu urtla fun!hahaha den went slack at cp to wait for dora friend hahah i could fall a sleep already hahah if i was not burn out i would have go town but hahah i am tired to the max! so went back home and hit the bed. up loads some pic soon :D


i gave the best of me
i thought i could revive what we use to have
i am not sure if all of this is gone
cos i cant read you anymore like i use to
I'm missing you really bad
i tried convincing myself that i am waiting for a sun that may nvr appeare
but it dint work even it i think the worst of you
you know how much i want to ask you how you feel for me?

No my heart just can't hide that feelin' inside

but i don't want to stoop as low anymore
but i think in your heart everything fade away already
i dont really know what i want
that why i need you to help me figure out
baby;i miss you

i have the weirdest friend ever imagine failing your Os and not feeling anything yeah he told me that!omg freaking god lar he say it is done already so be it aHAHAHAH hope he rot in ite nnthing wrong going there :D !hahah but i know some of my senior pass thier Os and i am happy for them :D hahaha

the meanst person is chloe lar!i am veryyyyyyyyy nice to call you! reject me call go tak care of your cousin lar!
i just got back home frm th ENT place and my doctor is very nice he wil stop when i tremble and he talk one word by one but it dont feel slow at all!even thought he talk like that i prefer him that that tan lar hahah he place somthing indside my ear.can say not really painfull but it is very fuuny i even had to squezeeee the nurse hand till so pain that why she let go!hahaha but she is nice and hospital people are really nice every person who works there gave me a heart warming smile even my doctor he is the bomb manz!

school was alright!mt is the bomb cos no lesson more to singing and cme is so fuuny lar. all the skit and stuff but i think ours was the nicest cos we have somthing which people can understanding and it is related and it is fun to have our clique and the indian have them most people lar that mean atiqah races! i only had nicole with me ahahahah blah den assembely class time with teachers ms yati. well i found out i am not problematic lar!no teachers complain about me and guess wat ms yati was shock that i can hand work on time and she say i am like her irriting lill sister wth wat is that suppose to mean!blah she is sister like, compere to mrs khoo she is more mother like :D

argh monday i dont wan go school when you own somthing to a teacher.omg omg ms ramlah will not let me do it.

shit oh fuck lar all of the data is lost now i have to do it all over again!hais not going to sleep today again i guess!its okie use to it already can sleep at some class tmr!
i wan to be a teacher so that i can torcher them!the school make me unhem my skirt till long lar and to them it is not long enough!then i like how my handwriting looks like wat got problem!fucking shit lar i dunnoe why i cry in maths class lar!i dont feel like doing it.argh some teachers and prefect should die lar!i rather paste green paper.my skirt now is long lar! wth wth hahaha now i have to read mly paper which give me massive head pain!den jus came home frm bukit batok jus to buy some disc with my lappy with me poeple think i am an ass carring some ass shit!
hais siannnnnnnnnn i saw wat chloe is doing for ayrton and i must say hahahahahahaHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHhahahahaha hahahahahaa!so effing funny!and wat luck when i am typing this he came online okie better start doing the thing again if not not cme marks and pray that i dun neeed do any sugery or put any crap on my eat tmr!HOPSITAL I CANT WAIT

home already
learnt jive for pe or somthing lke that MS the instrouctor was back frm the yesterday one.today was errm hahaha much of a licking day the tubes was nice la.den english was nnthng much mr chong lesson was the most i dun understand one i had no shit wat he was talking about.cos it was after lunch and did some experiment for mr goh lesson.he even brough us to the wrong level lar the 2nd one lar.wth then we had to go up again.hahaha den had mr tan for prodots the first ever lesson i listen to lar cos i want to go back home early.stupid tan go die lar.den cab to ica building there.blah den i went eat with mom but she went to shop yeah i leave her cos i was tired lar.i am not a pervertic person but i saw this couple and the guy boxer can really be seen lar.everyone notice lar.den i ran back home .ppl think i am crazy.
omg i am going to the hospital on friday lar.i am shit right scared.
unluckiest year ever.hais

am i still in your life ?

jus reach back home.hais i need go ENT at alexendra there?i thought at tts but need to wait for 47 day so she ask me go there to a hospital lar.maybe going there nxt week..omgg i am scared to the max.more water enter my ear cos i forget that i need to cover my ear.scared to the max lar.wat a year i had lar.this really suck.i went see a doctor 3 time within 2 months lar.hais suckky i know.had syf dance before i went to redhill.tired me out lar.the instructor is errm hahha calling us baby and sister in a way.HAHAH so gay lar.my dancing look lke shit.just found out beatboxing is inside the opening thing.hahahaa but we are cheerleaders for the dance very fun lar.but i need to brush on my dancing.and that guy came from temaske.ppl from there got alot of talent.adriano is frm there :D hahaha today was fun lar.dint really study as there was a sport check HAHAHA darn fun.the only time you can place your handphone on the table :D den we had recess twice which was fun cos the it was the first ever recess i was looking forward to :D den ms ramlah dint come 3 period :D which was more fun hahaha den mt jus listen crap.den i had the syf dance thing.

i wan to love you lke nobody know

just got back home.argh went out hahah.valentine is in 11 days time and mahera have no valentine :(
i hate 14 feb cos i will feel so lonely :( going out and see couple holding flowers :( how did scientist discover that roses or flowers is a sweet thing?why dint they say rock or grass?
hahaha well anyone free on the 14th if not i wil arrange for tuttion lesson :D hahaha yeah! maybe i will get sick again lke one tat day again.tmr going see the doctor again.i wanted to go on monday.well I wanted to go but mom and dad say tmr lar.den dad say okie go on monday.den mom say dont give in to her all the time.HAHAHAH wth i could have go on monday and miss ms ramlah class.scarry to the max when you still own her something.with parents letter.shit shit shit lar.but i wan go school cos got audtion lar.
shit lar i am scared that my ear drum is still not heal cos i still feel pain in my ear at times.

randomnesss HAHAHA i have no idea chyna did this ones so i will do it also HHAHAH wth right i know :DHAHAHAHAHAHA

saw gracia profie den i saw hahahah bao jian testi omg lar so darn funny.senior i cannot believe he wrote that after all he call ed you pretty&mature!
hahaha i am not pretty&mature lke you :D HAHAHA SO FUNNY LAR

you say hello i'm screaming i love you.
i pray to be only yours

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

eveything is going back to the old time.please i thought once was enough but twice.i thought you leanrt your lesson lar.but i guess wrong.aunty i'm sorry if i dint take good care of her.i thought you change but you got worst lar.you own me an explation

eveything is going back to the old time.please i thought once was enough but twice.i thought you leanrt your lesson lar.but i guess wrong.aunty i'm sorry if i dint take good care of her.i thought you change but you got worst lar.you own me an explation

argh so boring today hahaha cikgu noridee nvr come and no malay oh shit i lost the work we were suppose to do.hahah and now a new rule hide your sock hey will make you remove it and they will take it away wth wth wth so many new rules!haiss i wand to get off the school lar so irrit.mrs kwok came back also nxt who lar?i keep seeing mrs koh droping her husband lar hahahha sad case husband cant drive:D i think sec1this year is so effing rude lar i mean not all of them but i was at the staff ro when i saw a sec 1 girl was behind mrs khoo and she wanted to kick her lar.i wanted to shout but it was at the staff room.wth lar if other teachers i unerstand lar.and that stupid mrs kaur she is a bitch lar.dont let us chnage cca was her problem talking to her make me scared to the max and her eyes were going to pop out!argh piss of bitch!tmr might be chaning sit!i hope i wont be one of them as i lke my place and my partner!hahahha i know i wont lar.went vivo today hahahah bought quite a number of food.meet some ppl to help them take pic!darn funny not even tourist want to take pic!funny lar will be busy this few days!wont blog offten